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What I'm hoping for with this text wall is that I reach a vulnerable state of practice of putting words on stage in a sense. It is exciting. It feels fresh. It's a painting with words, shifting layers. Thank you Brendan Barrett for making me this website! I'm putting up feelings, thoughts, old papers, quotes. And like a painting I'm after a certain mood, it's a living thing.
What I'm hoping for with this text wall is that I reach a vulnerable state of practice of putting words on stage in a sense. It is exciting. It feels fresh. It's a painting with words, shifting layers. Thank you Brendan Barrett for making me this website! I'm putting up feelings, thoughts, old papers, quotes. And like a painting I'm after a certain mood, it's a living thing.
How did I get here? A collection of moments crystalized into images, layer by layer. Re-cast into a tidy story, which I can rely upon. Security. I know who I am. I’ll show you my collection of hard facts about who I am. Security. I know what I believe, and I know why. When this knowing descends upon me, am I free? This is just one way of seeing. After all, isn’t it okay to do what I can to feel secure? Isn’t it important? Can I prescribe a secure freedom for myself in a tidy handful of well-worn beliefs? The ideas I have collected are just thoughts until they become the cherished, hard-won contents of this half or that half of myself— I just need to convince the other half. You? Security is a glittering, hollow promise. Cradling ideas. Collecting conviction. Can truth be a part of the same collection? Freedom?
How did I get here? A collection of moments crystalized into images, layer by layer. Re-cast into a tidy story, which I can rely upon. Security. I know who I am. I’ll show you my collection of hard facts about who I am. Security. I know what I believe, and I know why. When this knowing descends upon me, am I free? This is just one way of seeing. After all, isn’t it okay to do what I can to feel secure? Isn’t it important? Can I prescribe a secure freedom for myself in a tidy handful of well-worn beliefs? The ideas I have collected are just thoughts until they become the cherished, hard-won contents of this half or that half of myself— I just need to convince the other half. You? Security is a glittering, hollow promise. Cradling ideas. Collecting conviction. Can truth be a part of the same collection? Freedom?
The real question - the REAL question, is why - WHY or the other way around YHW, which is kind of like YAHOO, if you're looking at it phonetically, or READING it phonetically in your mind, which not so much a question but an exclamation, which always begs the question of what is PROVOKING the exclamation - must be something stirring enough to exclaim about, thought that's not true as such - rather it may be that whoever it is that is exclaiming is easily excited, in which case the thing may be insignificant. and yet to that person it may feel very significant. So what am I saying here? What the fuck was the point of this!? That is really the question.
The real question - the REAL question, is why - WHY or the other way around YHW, which is kind of like YAHOO, if you're looking at it phonetically, or READING it phonetically in your mind, which not so much a question but an exclamation, which always begs the question of what is PROVOKING the exclamation - must be something stirring enough to exclaim about, thought that's not true as such - rather it may be that whoever it is that is exclaiming is easily excited, in which case the thing may be insignificant. and yet to that person it may feel very significant. So what am I saying here? What the fuck was the point of this!? That is really the question.
Christopher Schuldt Qualifying paper 2023 run 2 c: being a river Overview Part 1: Locating a framework. Introduction, Positionality, Methods, Motivation, Framework Part 2: Contextualizing my practice. Current work and influences Conclusion Part 1: Locating a Framework Introduction, Positionality, Methods, Motivation, Framework Introduction My research and practice exist as state of active questioning about the world and the artwork that I create. Navigating structures is a core theme of what I am interested in and is in some way related to all the topics I research through my work. I think about culture and knowledge as stories existing within a large interconnected system which guides my perception of reality. Through my work, I reflect on my experience navigating the constructs and systems that these stories represent, which form the basis of my experience of the world; stories about how things are and what things mean, which inform how I make sense of the world. Although my work is inescapably grounded in my experience, part of my challenge is giving my work the space that it needs to be what it is, without being prescriptive. I often don’t know where I’m going, and I think that trusting the process and experience of not knowing is the method that allows me to navigate through my life and work most effectively. Positionality I was born in 1990 in Minnesota. I am a white person with Northern European heritage. My mom, Nicole, was born in the Netherlands, and my dad, Edward, was born in the United States, with ancestors that came to the U.S from Prussia. I grew up in rural Upstate New York, with an older brother, Michael, and a younger sister, Katherine. I had a good childhood, filled with many joyful, strange, and exciting experiences and some that were tough and bizarre. I attended Waldorf schools from kindergarten through 12th grade, and my life has been greatly influenced by that education, as well as the values of Anthroposophy, which guided both of my parents in the way they raised me and my siblings. During my adolescence I experienced some rough patches. My parents got divorced. I got into trouble with my brother. I began questioning life on many levels; the grind of routines I witnessed in society, spirituality, sexuality, and how I wanted to live my life. In high school I experienced an ongoing existential crisis of varying intensity, that was heightened by drugs and alcohol. Following my graduation from high school I had several years of extreme instability, in which drug and alcohol use contributed to the erosion of my mental health and resulted in being committed to several psychiatric wards over the course of that time. I went to a rehab center in 2013, and I have been clean and sober for 10 years. For several years before I got sober, I created a personal, isolated, and delusional understanding of the world though an intuitive and associative method of finding meaning in everything. When I got sober, I chose to let go the system of meaning I had created and live in the shared social reality with the people around me. During those experiences in 2010, I began a drawing practice that was intensified when I was committed to a psychiatric prison ward. The first practice was initially a way of not thinking and letting myself exist externally as a kind of escape from the anxiety and boredom of reality in confinement. In the beginning they were highly maximal and shared some characteristics with the concept of the Hilbert curve in the way I would fill the whole page with lines, although more expressive and with greater interplay of the lines1. These drawings acquired rules that began to govern how I drew them and became more restrained, with a greater emphasis on space generated by creating a figure ground relationship through the gestalt principles of continuation and overlapping by implying the disappearance and reappearance of lines behind a space that would push forms forward and backward, this became a large aspect of this ongoing practice, with the first rule being no crossing lines, which I consider a violation, and makes it feel like a big move when I do break the rule. Another rule that creates a lot of structure is that the lines are all a continuous loop, despite having breaks, so there is no loose ends, except those that are made in the tangle of folding and overlapping, which through the figure ground relationship creates a what I imagine as a contradictory or impossible space. The other aspect of the practice was developed in relationship with a friend I met in the ward named Manuel. We talked about creating images that, as Manuel put it, acted like medicine. My experience was that the drawings would set up a certain amount of structure or a kind of logic that was then subverted in some way. The internal shift I experience, or leap I make in holding the contradiction is the medicine. It is a subtle register and functions best outside of language. This is something that I think about often. 1 A Hilbert curve is a continuous space-filing curve. They are also fractal and are self-similar; If you zoom in and look closely at a section of a higher-order curve, the pattern you see looks just the same as itself. [http://datagenetics.com/blog/march22013/index.html] It is through these key experiences of creating a personal system of meaning and then letting that go, I have realized the way that my understanding of the world is structured by the stories I am telling myself, and through which I have reflected on the way society functions and creates meanings and doctrines which become internalized and structure life. Methods I will discuss my art practice in relationship to Leanne Simpsons concept of grounded normativity as a way of creating the foundation for myself of openness and trust in my process, and Jan Verwoert’s theories on refusal to perform, and the potential of latency of meaning in abstraction to reach toward and access grounded normativity. Through these theories I can establish the context in which the visual forms I want to reach can arise, which also constitutes a way forward in my creative practice and reclaims my past experiences. Motivation Art is what I feel called to do because it fulfills me on all levels of life, physically mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I feel something can be expressed through art that cannot otherwise be expressed. In a public talk titled “The Artists Struggle for Integrity” in 1963, James Baldwin proposed that only artists can speak to the truth of what it is to be human, and that artists have the responsibility to society, though they may never know those millions of people to whom they are responsible, and whom may even wish them harm, and, that “it does not matter what happens to you [the artist], you are being used in the way a crab is useful, the way sand certainly has some function, it is impersonal, this force that you didn’t ask for and its destiny which you must accept is also your responsibility and if you survive it, if you don’t cheat, if you don’t lie, it is not only you know, your glory, your achievement. It is almost our only hope” because only an artist can speak to what it means to be human, to speak to what it feels like to fear and love and feel. And the ultimate price that the artist and the audience must pay is the willingness to give up everything; you can only take if you are prepared to give and giving is not an investment, it is a total risk.2 At times I question my responsibility to society as an artist. I don’t know whether it is the sole place or ability of the artist to speak to the experiences of the human condition. I also have doubts about the actual contribution I can make. Despite these uncertainties, or perhaps alongside them, I find Baldwin’s proposition immensely hopeful and inspiring. Ultimately, I keep making art, and perhaps though that. or because of that, I return to the conviction that I do care and feel called to contribute in some way to society and to myself by continuing my practice, and by taking the total risk that my investment in this practice will amount to nothing. Framework: grounded normativity, refusal to perform, and latency in meaning Grounded normativity is a concept described by Anishinaabe scholar Leanne Simpson, in the context of native resurgence and nation building, and returning to a space within the tradition of Nishnaabeg thought that is supportive of Queer Indigeneity. Simpson uses a native feminist framework and presents the concept around queer sexuality specifically, but it is important to note, as Simpson writes, “Queer Indigeneity cannot be reduced to just sexual orientation. It is about a web of supportive, reciprocal, generative relationships that we often do not have names for in English and exist outside of the hierarchy and the imagination of heteropatriarchy..."3 Simpson argues for centering Queer Indigeneity within grounded normativity because the supportive relationships and reciprocity that is the basis of Queer Indigeneity is at the heart of what grounded normativity is. Simpson states, “I think Nishnaabeg thought is queer, and if we are doing it correctly, we shouldn’t have to queer resurgence, because the political, ethical and social organization that the 2SQ Indigenous community has held onto and protected so fiercely would already be centered. Queer Indigeneity has a place for straightness, and that’s why we should center it.” The idea that Queer Indigeneity has a place for straightness illustrates the idea of a context that exceeds structures like heteronormativity, which Simpson calls out as belonging to the ideology of western settler colonialism, and which isolates and others any variation from that worldview because it is at odds with that system of logic. I am building on Simpsons ideas to realize a level of acceptance within myself and my creative practice that is free of the confines that I put on myself, whether they are internalized from society or not. My resonance with grounded normativity is as that space of open possibility, which does not impose a ridged qualified way of being as normal or good and allows for the open question of “Who am I, what do I want to do, and specifically within my practice, what am I thinking about and how do I want to move?” One of the ways I find myself reaching toward grounded normativity is through Jan Verwoert’s ideas in his essay Exhaustion and Exuberance. Verwoert talks about the 2 James Baldwin, Part of a talk given at the Community Church in New York in 1963. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dU0g5fAA2QY&t=0s 3 Simpson. Indigenous Queer normativity page 134 high-performance culture and economy that dominates life, and the possibility for agency within the shift from the always expected “I can,” to “I can’t.” Verwoert argues that the refusal to perform is not an abdication of agency. He talks about the ultimate unconditional “I can,” that arises through feeling of care and solidarity, and finally poses the question: “If, living under the pressure to perform, we begin to see that a state of exhaustion is a horizon of collective experience, could we then understand this experience as the point of departure for the formation of a particular form of solidarity? A solidarity that would not lay the foundations for the assertion of a potent operative community, but which would, on the contrary, lead us to acknowledge that the one thing we share exhaustion—makes us an inoperative community, an exhausted community, or a community of the exhausted. A community, however, that can still act, not because it is entitled to do so by the institutions of power, but by virtue of an unconditional, exuberant politics of dedication. In short, because, as a community of convalescents, we realise in an empty moment of full awareness, that we care.”4 Although Verwoert is focused on performance, and Simpson is presenting her theory through centering Queer Indigeneity, within these two concepts I feel a great sense of overlap and potential keys for how to move within my life and practice. Grounded normativity speaks to the “unconditional, exuberant politics of dedication” that Verwoert concludes his essay with. The methods of refusal to perform in a high- performance culture which Verwoert talks about serve as an example for me of how to move beyond cultural structures that ultimately do not serve me, and that can lead me to a space of grounded normativity. Another important concept that Verwoert brings up is latency of meaning within art, and particularly abstraction. “Another mode of performing the I Can’t in the key of the I Can that art and poetry have always used to great effect is to create moments in which meaning remains provocatively latent. To embrace latency goes against the grain of the logic of high performance. The appraisal of latency restores dignity to the unsaid, the unshown, and everything that can’t be dragged out into the open in the rush of high performance when the value of all our potentials appears to depend entirely on our capacity to actualise them right here, right now. The fatal consequence of a continuous pressure to perform is the exhaustion of all our potentials precisely because the current social order denies the value of latency, the value of a potentiality that remains presently unactualized and quite possibly can’t ever be exhaustively actualised. It seems that we have to learn to re- experience the value and beauty of latency.” I am considering that the value and beauty of latency that Verwoert is calling for us to re-experience is a core tenet of grounded normativity, which is about allowing 4 Verwoert, Exhaustion and Exuberance, page 12 identities to be what they are without requiring an upfront definition to ensure they fit into the logic of a culture that is based on binaries of right and wrong and good and bad. I think latency within a culture could look like the acceptance of queerness without having to state anything because there is a shared understanding that things are what they are, instead of things being what they are to perform according to an external structure. I also connect latency of meaning within abstraction to my experiences with Manuel, and the practice of making drawings that play on multiple levels at once and act as medicine for the ossified way of looking and being that habit encourages within strict systems of meaning that structure understanding of the world. Both Simpson and Verwoerts’ ideas are important to me as a framework to be able on realize with clarity what I want to reach for on many levels within my practice, both as a painter in the expanded field in terms of process and materials, in which I want to allow myself the freedom to explore those boundaries and experiment, and within the construction of images themselves and their conceptual content, in which I want to create a level of resonance and interruption that is ultimately still coherent and only able to exist within a context that must necessarily exceed the fragmented and contradictory systems that interrupt each other. Part 2: Contextualizing my practice. Current practice and influences The framework that I am developing through the idea of Simpson and Verwoert is relatively new, and although they build on some older ideas, there exists a gap between these theories and some of my recent work and current practice. This section will introduce some of the work that has brought me to where I am now, and how I am conceiving of my practice, with a few sources of inspiration and scholarship to further contextualize my position, and how I intend to move forward. I consider myself a painter in the expanded field. I am dedicated to painting, and I am interested in pushing against the traditional boundaries the medium. Mark Titmarsh suggests that “Expanded painting could be simply defined as painting and something else. As a result, it is a kind of painting that moves out beyond the easel and the physical limitations of the image to investigate how far painting can go in spatial and temporal dimensions.5 5. Mark Titmarsh, Expanded Painting. Page 13. Titmarsh notes the term expanded painting comes from popular usage and is a reworking of Rosalind Krauss’ essay, Sculpture in the Expanded Field. Titmarsh states that expanded painting is a self-reflexive practice that has emerged from the continued challenge to the relevance of painting over the last century and that the discipline of expanded painting is deepening itself through self-questioning at a formal level – what is essential to painting? He notes that installation art was another recent solution that was developed as a catch all to refer to all many mediums that broke into the expanded field, but that installation says little about specific differences or potentials within the expanded field. He gives a quick lineage for expanded painting as installation: “Installation art as an alternative term for expanded painting has identifiable roots that thread back through Minimalism, Conceptualism, Arte Povera, Fluxus, Rauschenberg, Pollock, Duchamp, Lissitzky, Tatlin and Picasso.” Within this history, Titmarsh identifies five challenges to painting on the 100 year trajectory to expanded painting. “First stage – the challenge to mimesis and representation, from Cezanne to abstraction. Second stage – the challenge to surface and picture plane, featuring exaggeration or elimination of the frame and the interruption of the flat In an interview with Mike Cloud from 2013 when asked about his thoughts on painting, particularly "painting as an expanded, flexible discipline that has the power to absorb other media," Cloud stated: "Painting is the contemplation of a skin, a painted film. Whether a painting is on a cave wall, canvas or wood, you can always conceptually separate a painting from its support. Wall space is sacred; it is the space of windows, doors, mirrors, and other kinds of portals. Sculptures are different; they have to share a space with living things, as does architecture. A chair could be either mundane or a work of art, so could a building. But all paintings are contrivances. They are all set apart.” When asked about the expanded definition of painting since modernism and how far painting could expand, Cloud said, “That’s like you’re asking where do the boundaries of dance end, and when are you just making a fool of yourself? I don’t know if it’s something you can really explain, but you know that the boundary exists. There is a point at which you simply aren’t making a painting, but something else. Part of the skill of a painter is in proposing those boundaries. This comes from experience. You have to paint for a long time to understand it.6 I am engaged in finding the boundaries of painting for myself within my practice. Although I often engage in other disciplines, painting is a center of gravity for me, surface with unusual objects, as in synthetic cubism, constructed painting and readymades. Third stage – the challenge to the vertical picture plane, where painting leaves the wall and rests on the floor collecting debris, as in Rauschenberg and Minimalism. Fourth stage- painting abandons the picture plane to occupy space, with the division of painterly elements like frame colour, surface into object-like substitutes and their alliance with other media, as in Conceptual Art, concrete painting, where the term ‘installation art’ grows in usage. Fifth stage- painting abandons materiality and embraces experience, temporality and an indeterminate theoretical practice that awaits proper consideration.” Page 6 - 8. 6 Dying Merging Multitasking: An Interview with Mike Cloud, 2013 https://temporaryartreview.com/dying-merging-multitasking-an-interview-with-mike-cloud/ not only formally but conceptually, even if the result is distinctly sculptural, or more closely related to a different discipline. In my work, Holding You, Holding Me, I was engaged in many different sculptural processes, both digital and analogue, and despite the metal chalice and bell being powder coated, the biggest connection to painting for me lies in the total composition with the structure that supports the bell and chalice, and speaks to the history of paintings and their supports. One of the interesting things for me to reflect on is that I made the bell and chalice first. The fluidity and improvisational nature of painting is usually reserved for the image on some kind of supported substrate, but in this project, it became about the support, which was designed and built after the bell and chalice were complete. My interest in the support structure came directly from my interests in thinking about context and relationships as types of communal support structures. In the same way the bell and chalice are also containers, one that is cradling and able to hold things – in this case slip-casted 3d printed acorns, and the other is holding space above. Both forms are also a continuation of each other and are further supported by the scaffold which speaks to me about relationships and community, and the potential through relationship to create a dynamic that extends beyond an individual. Part of this interest grew from a question I brought with me when I began grad school, which was: at what point does an image on a surface breakdown into texture, and through texture become unreadable as image and, having lost the tension in being on top of the surface, begins to speak to the body of the form. And within those relationships what position does pattern occupy relative to image on the one side and texture on the other. All these conditions relate to support in some way or can be connect to the idea of context through form or surface, which either supports or disrupts an image. My formal exploration of this question did not last too long, although I do intend to continue this research. The question is still active in thinking about image and support albeit it an oblique way. The one project I created out of the intention to explore these relationships is the ceramic piece titled Skybagboot, from 2021. In this work I thought about the image power of the cloud sky which dominates the flat face of the form and then breaks down into stripes that run along the other parts of the form to emphasize its contours. This description is optimistic, I think it only reached part of the way there. In the following ceramic work, I made titled Ride or Die, I abandoned the direction of a slightly more naturalistic image. Instead, I focused more on contouring, and thought about image as surface treatment that supports form, creating an emphasis though surface which the form couldn’t reach alone. This then became more of a conceptual image, where my consideration was about appearances at large and thinking about performance and presenting, which included the combination of image and form in an integrated way. During the same time, I was working on a series of paintings that were playing with systems of meaning. They use typographical forms as reference to language and basic geometric volumes that imply a fragmented perspectival space. I had in mind the medicine drawings but was not sure how to speak about them. To ground them more with visual clues that created a scaffold for verbal description I emphasized the linguistic and perspectival elements. The paintings became a different facet of the original intention, and developed the way I was thinking in a more analytical direction. Beyond the references of typography and geometric solids these works also incorporate material, gestural that are indebted to Abstract Expressionism, but do not exist as a complete thought, being disrupted by clear reference to signs and symbols. This method of using past gestures and deploying them in new ways is something that excites me about history because the moves have become coded and exist as their own system. Amy Sillman’s does this in her work, which is often clearly indebted to Abstract Expressionism through gestural marks which are attributed to modernist painting. Sillman is intensely conscious of the history of painting and is content with, in her words, “‘squatting in the foreclosed real estate of art history.”7 I see the awareness of art history and the insertion of certain moves that can complicate each other as another facet to in creating an awareness of positionality through multiple systems of understanding that complicate each other, and can reveal the limits of these systems. 7 Laura J. Hoptman. The Forever now: contemporary painting in an atemporal world. New York: Museum of Modern Art, 2014. Page 33. I continued this exploration with the painting titled, “Nein,” from 2022. In Nein, like in the systems paintings, I painted cylinders, half-cylinders and fragments of cylinders that imply a perspectival space, and the forms of which echo typographical forms, like the letter g and the number 9 or an upper-case D. The small number 9 that is situated in the lower right-hand corner of the picture plane calls attention to the forms as typographical design that is flat and denies the volume that rendering, and perspective would grant them. They represent two systems that can create tension between one way of seeing the world and another. I don’t think this really the case for the number 9, as it exists in the implied perspectival space of the cylinders, and it can exist there without a real challenge. In this case it is up to the viewer to crash the image if they see the connections and push against the logic of implied volume. Thinking through the question of how I make sense of the world and how structures like language and tradition contribute to my understanding life, I made a series of paintings that incorporated the process of projecting light through a wooden structure. These paintings felt more personal in the way that I was thinking about specific moments or people and my relationship with them as I was creating the work. Within the process of creating the work, the other major formal and conceptual consideration was about exploring frames and images within images or a larger field of color, texture or marks. This speaks to me about context as support, with distinguishable different qualities providing ground for one another thing to emerge. This led me to a recent painting, titled Silver-bullet Janus becomes a Diamond. The more concrete image sits inside the sloppy trompe l'oeil of the globular silver forms and slips down further at the bottom of the picture plane. The image is interrupted by green lines that come out of my spatial loop line drawings. In this painting I began to think more about the figure ground relationship with the incorporation of the green line and the grey forms, which force the line to exist as a ground because of their implied volume. There is pressure in the painting and things don’t quite come together. The more figurative image creates a sense of continuity that pushes the green line forward, although the edges of both the figurative concrete image and the silvery grey forms are quite loose, and upon close inspection the painting falls apart. In the project Orbit, I continued exploring these visual dynamics of a figure ground relationship that is created by implied volumes using the highlights to create a sense of dimension. Orbit features 6 paintings displayed on a cart. The work is meant to be engaged with physically by the audience, who may move the paintings from one side of the cart to the other, initiating a circulation of the paintings, which I relate to as the dissemination of information, and the continual shifting positions which things are engaged from and with. The display of the paintings on the cart also creates a tension because some of the painted images are always unavailable to look at, although the painting as an object is present, it refuses full disclosure. The feelings that guided my process came from ending a romantic relationship with a loved one, and so a sense of hope, expectation and uncertainty were tangible experiences during making this. There is a brutal quality to the paintings that I feel from the palette and overall construction with corner pieces and cart, that feels cold and indifferent, and a remoteness from the illusionistic highlights that is simultaneously seductive and compelling in their economy. The naturalistic image that is repeated over all the paintings depicts stacks of prefab 2x4 frames for building a structure that has yet to be constructed. During the same time as I was making Orbit, I created a collaborative lithography print at Tamarind titled Blue-print Flight-path. I was thinking through the same concerns and in Orbit, and even used the same image of the stacks of wood frames, but the approach to image making was distinctly different and I diverged in my considerations as I moved through the process. I pulled from the practice of the spatial loops drawings, although I broke all the rules, and it set me on a different course that felt more open than the packaged rigidity of Orbit, however seductive. All three of these works, Silver-bullet Janus becomes a Diamond, Orbit and Blue- print Flight-plan, incorporate concrete imagery, the use of which is something I am grappling with in my practice right now. I am drawn to the power of concrete images because they can grab attention. But the power of images is a sleepy power. They grab attention partially because they are familiar, and when surrounded in an abstract field they become something to latch onto. They become an anchor and a way in, providing the viewer with something to access the painting with, like a map key. While I am interested in that dynamic, it also troubles me. To what degree is the viewing experience then a comparison of one area to the rest without finding more in the image, or arriving at a more nuanced reading? In Blue-print Flight-plan, the use of the image may be the most effective in resisting the dynamic of becoming anchor too heavily because the image is abstracted through being tiled and then large spots are removed, making which pushes the image to behave like a texture. Conclusion In the process of making some of my work I feel a sense of directness that I want to move away from. The work makes too much sense to me, and maybe that means that I am not taking enough risks. In a 2018 Interview for the Brooklyn Rail, Charlene von Heyl states regarding abstraction in her work, “Abstraction is not only about “no- meaning,” it’s also about imploding meaning. I like to have references to half-thought associations...”8 Often my associations are very concrete, and I use painting processes to separate myself from being so directly tied to things I’m thinking about or feeling and yet I have been inserting naturalistic images into my abstractions. This has been of interest to me, and I want to push the work to cultivate a greater sense of latency in meaning for myself within my work. However, within that push towards a slower less expected read of the work, I also I don’t want to lose the sense of consciousness necessary to call out and reference systems of knowledge both within art history and broader culture. I am hopeful the working from a way if being that comes out of grounded normativity can hold the many contradictions that I feel are always present for me within my practice with openness and acceptance. I do have a sense of freedom when I am felling though that way being, and I am excited to reach towards a place of feeling fully integrated within myself. I do not believe that things will be easily resolved, if ever, or that they necessarily should be, but hope that in the search for the centers and boundaries of my interests I allow myself to move freely without being paralyzed by analysis or self -doubt. The work that I want to focus on next is in the spirit of the medicine drawings, which out of all the practices I have engaged with, has the deepest resonance with me in terms of feeling in a space beyond language, even when I am using parts of language to get to that visual space. 8 https://brooklynrail.org/2018/11/art/CHARLINE-VON-HEYL-with-Raphael-Rubinstein
Christopher Schuldt Qualifying paper 2023 run 2 c: being a river Overview Part 1: Locating a framework. Introduction, Positionality, Methods, Motivation, Framework Part 2: Contextualizing my practice. Current work and influences Conclusion Part 1: Locating a Framework Introduction, Positionality, Methods, Motivation, Framework Introduction My research and practice exist as state of active questioning about the world and the artwork that I create. Navigating structures is a core theme of what I am interested in and is in some way related to all the topics I research through my work. I think about culture and knowledge as stories existing within a large interconnected system which guides my perception of reality. Through my work, I reflect on my experience navigating the constructs and systems that these stories represent, which form the basis of my experience of the world; stories about how things are and what things mean, which inform how I make sense of the world. Although my work is inescapably grounded in my experience, part of my challenge is giving my work the space that it needs to be what it is, without being prescriptive. I often don’t know where I’m going, and I think that trusting the process and experience of not knowing is the method that allows me to navigate through my life and work most effectively. Positionality I was born in 1990 in Minnesota. I am a white person with Northern European heritage. My mom, Nicole, was born in the Netherlands, and my dad, Edward, was born in the United States, with ancestors that came to the U.S from Prussia. I grew up in rural Upstate New York, with an older brother, Michael, and a younger sister, Katherine. I had a good childhood, filled with many joyful, strange, and exciting experiences and some that were tough and bizarre. I attended Waldorf schools from kindergarten through 12th grade, and my life has been greatly influenced by that education, as well as the values of Anthroposophy, which guided both of my parents in the way they raised me and my siblings. During my adolescence I experienced some rough patches. My parents got divorced. I got into trouble with my brother. I began questioning life on many levels; the grind of routines I witnessed in society, spirituality, sexuality, and how I wanted to live my life. In high school I experienced an ongoing existential crisis of varying intensity, that was heightened by drugs and alcohol. Following my graduation from high school I had several years of extreme instability, in which drug and alcohol use contributed to the erosion of my mental health and resulted in being committed to several psychiatric wards over the course of that time. I went to a rehab center in 2013, and I have been clean and sober for 10 years. For several years before I got sober, I created a personal, isolated, and delusional understanding of the world though an intuitive and associative method of finding meaning in everything. When I got sober, I chose to let go the system of meaning I had created and live in the shared social reality with the people around me. During those experiences in 2010, I began a drawing practice that was intensified when I was committed to a psychiatric prison ward. The first practice was initially a way of not thinking and letting myself exist externally as a kind of escape from the anxiety and boredom of reality in confinement. In the beginning they were highly maximal and shared some characteristics with the concept of the Hilbert curve in the way I would fill the whole page with lines, although more expressive and with greater interplay of the lines1. These drawings acquired rules that began to govern how I drew them and became more restrained, with a greater emphasis on space generated by creating a figure ground relationship through the gestalt principles of continuation and overlapping by implying the disappearance and reappearance of lines behind a space that would push forms forward and backward, this became a large aspect of this ongoing practice, with the first rule being no crossing lines, which I consider a violation, and makes it feel like a big move when I do break the rule. Another rule that creates a lot of structure is that the lines are all a continuous loop, despite having breaks, so there is no loose ends, except those that are made in the tangle of folding and overlapping, which through the figure ground relationship creates a what I imagine as a contradictory or impossible space. The other aspect of the practice was developed in relationship with a friend I met in the ward named Manuel. We talked about creating images that, as Manuel put it, acted like medicine. My experience was that the drawings would set up a certain amount of structure or a kind of logic that was then subverted in some way. The internal shift I experience, or leap I make in holding the contradiction is the medicine. It is a subtle register and functions best outside of language. This is something that I think about often. 1 A Hilbert curve is a continuous space-filing curve. They are also fractal and are self-similar; If you zoom in and look closely at a section of a higher-order curve, the pattern you see looks just the same as itself. [http://datagenetics.com/blog/march22013/index.html] It is through these key experiences of creating a personal system of meaning and then letting that go, I have realized the way that my understanding of the world is structured by the stories I am telling myself, and through which I have reflected on the way society functions and creates meanings and doctrines which become internalized and structure life. Methods I will discuss my art practice in relationship to Leanne Simpsons concept of grounded normativity as a way of creating the foundation for myself of openness and trust in my process, and Jan Verwoert’s theories on refusal to perform, and the potential of latency of meaning in abstraction to reach toward and access grounded normativity. Through these theories I can establish the context in which the visual forms I want to reach can arise, which also constitutes a way forward in my creative practice and reclaims my past experiences. Motivation Art is what I feel called to do because it fulfills me on all levels of life, physically mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I feel something can be expressed through art that cannot otherwise be expressed. In a public talk titled “The Artists Struggle for Integrity” in 1963, James Baldwin proposed that only artists can speak to the truth of what it is to be human, and that artists have the responsibility to society, though they may never know those millions of people to whom they are responsible, and whom may even wish them harm, and, that “it does not matter what happens to you [the artist], you are being used in the way a crab is useful, the way sand certainly has some function, it is impersonal, this force that you didn’t ask for and its destiny which you must accept is also your responsibility and if you survive it, if you don’t cheat, if you don’t lie, it is not only you know, your glory, your achievement. It is almost our only hope” because only an artist can speak to what it means to be human, to speak to what it feels like to fear and love and feel. And the ultimate price that the artist and the audience must pay is the willingness to give up everything; you can only take if you are prepared to give and giving is not an investment, it is a total risk.2 At times I question my responsibility to society as an artist. I don’t know whether it is the sole place or ability of the artist to speak to the experiences of the human condition. I also have doubts about the actual contribution I can make. Despite these uncertainties, or perhaps alongside them, I find Baldwin’s proposition immensely hopeful and inspiring. Ultimately, I keep making art, and perhaps though that. or because of that, I return to the conviction that I do care and feel called to contribute in some way to society and to myself by continuing my practice, and by taking the total risk that my investment in this practice will amount to nothing. Framework: grounded normativity, refusal to perform, and latency in meaning Grounded normativity is a concept described by Anishinaabe scholar Leanne Simpson, in the context of native resurgence and nation building, and returning to a space within the tradition of Nishnaabeg thought that is supportive of Queer Indigeneity. Simpson uses a native feminist framework and presents the concept around queer sexuality specifically, but it is important to note, as Simpson writes, “Queer Indigeneity cannot be reduced to just sexual orientation. It is about a web of supportive, reciprocal, generative relationships that we often do not have names for in English and exist outside of the hierarchy and the imagination of heteropatriarchy..."3 Simpson argues for centering Queer Indigeneity within grounded normativity because the supportive relationships and reciprocity that is the basis of Queer Indigeneity is at the heart of what grounded normativity is. Simpson states, “I think Nishnaabeg thought is queer, and if we are doing it correctly, we shouldn’t have to queer resurgence, because the political, ethical and social organization that the 2SQ Indigenous community has held onto and protected so fiercely would already be centered. Queer Indigeneity has a place for straightness, and that’s why we should center it.” The idea that Queer Indigeneity has a place for straightness illustrates the idea of a context that exceeds structures like heteronormativity, which Simpson calls out as belonging to the ideology of western settler colonialism, and which isolates and others any variation from that worldview because it is at odds with that system of logic. I am building on Simpsons ideas to realize a level of acceptance within myself and my creative practice that is free of the confines that I put on myself, whether they are internalized from society or not. My resonance with grounded normativity is as that space of open possibility, which does not impose a ridged qualified way of being as normal or good and allows for the open question of “Who am I, what do I want to do, and specifically within my practice, what am I thinking about and how do I want to move?” One of the ways I find myself reaching toward grounded normativity is through Jan Verwoert’s ideas in his essay Exhaustion and Exuberance. Verwoert talks about the 2 James Baldwin, Part of a talk given at the Community Church in New York in 1963. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dU0g5fAA2QY&t=0s 3 Simpson. Indigenous Queer normativity page 134 high-performance culture and economy that dominates life, and the possibility for agency within the shift from the always expected “I can,” to “I can’t.” Verwoert argues that the refusal to perform is not an abdication of agency. He talks about the ultimate unconditional “I can,” that arises through feeling of care and solidarity, and finally poses the question: “If, living under the pressure to perform, we begin to see that a state of exhaustion is a horizon of collective experience, could we then understand this experience as the point of departure for the formation of a particular form of solidarity? A solidarity that would not lay the foundations for the assertion of a potent operative community, but which would, on the contrary, lead us to acknowledge that the one thing we share exhaustion—makes us an inoperative community, an exhausted community, or a community of the exhausted. A community, however, that can still act, not because it is entitled to do so by the institutions of power, but by virtue of an unconditional, exuberant politics of dedication. In short, because, as a community of convalescents, we realise in an empty moment of full awareness, that we care.”4 Although Verwoert is focused on performance, and Simpson is presenting her theory through centering Queer Indigeneity, within these two concepts I feel a great sense of overlap and potential keys for how to move within my life and practice. Grounded normativity speaks to the “unconditional, exuberant politics of dedication” that Verwoert concludes his essay with. The methods of refusal to perform in a high- performance culture which Verwoert talks about serve as an example for me of how to move beyond cultural structures that ultimately do not serve me, and that can lead me to a space of grounded normativity. Another important concept that Verwoert brings up is latency of meaning within art, and particularly abstraction. “Another mode of performing the I Can’t in the key of the I Can that art and poetry have always used to great effect is to create moments in which meaning remains provocatively latent. To embrace latency goes against the grain of the logic of high performance. The appraisal of latency restores dignity to the unsaid, the unshown, and everything that can’t be dragged out into the open in the rush of high performance when the value of all our potentials appears to depend entirely on our capacity to actualise them right here, right now. The fatal consequence of a continuous pressure to perform is the exhaustion of all our potentials precisely because the current social order denies the value of latency, the value of a potentiality that remains presently unactualized and quite possibly can’t ever be exhaustively actualised. It seems that we have to learn to re- experience the value and beauty of latency.” I am considering that the value and beauty of latency that Verwoert is calling for us to re-experience is a core tenet of grounded normativity, which is about allowing 4 Verwoert, Exhaustion and Exuberance, page 12 identities to be what they are without requiring an upfront definition to ensure they fit into the logic of a culture that is based on binaries of right and wrong and good and bad. I think latency within a culture could look like the acceptance of queerness without having to state anything because there is a shared understanding that things are what they are, instead of things being what they are to perform according to an external structure. I also connect latency of meaning within abstraction to my experiences with Manuel, and the practice of making drawings that play on multiple levels at once and act as medicine for the ossified way of looking and being that habit encourages within strict systems of meaning that structure understanding of the world. Both Simpson and Verwoerts’ ideas are important to me as a framework to be able on realize with clarity what I want to reach for on many levels within my practice, both as a painter in the expanded field in terms of process and materials, in which I want to allow myself the freedom to explore those boundaries and experiment, and within the construction of images themselves and their conceptual content, in which I want to create a level of resonance and interruption that is ultimately still coherent and only able to exist within a context that must necessarily exceed the fragmented and contradictory systems that interrupt each other. Part 2: Contextualizing my practice. Current practice and influences The framework that I am developing through the idea of Simpson and Verwoert is relatively new, and although they build on some older ideas, there exists a gap between these theories and some of my recent work and current practice. This section will introduce some of the work that has brought me to where I am now, and how I am conceiving of my practice, with a few sources of inspiration and scholarship to further contextualize my position, and how I intend to move forward. I consider myself a painter in the expanded field. I am dedicated to painting, and I am interested in pushing against the traditional boundaries the medium. Mark Titmarsh suggests that “Expanded painting could be simply defined as painting and something else. As a result, it is a kind of painting that moves out beyond the easel and the physical limitations of the image to investigate how far painting can go in spatial and temporal dimensions.5 5. Mark Titmarsh, Expanded Painting. Page 13. Titmarsh notes the term expanded painting comes from popular usage and is a reworking of Rosalind Krauss’ essay, Sculpture in the Expanded Field. Titmarsh states that expanded painting is a self-reflexive practice that has emerged from the continued challenge to the relevance of painting over the last century and that the discipline of expanded painting is deepening itself through self-questioning at a formal level – what is essential to painting? He notes that installation art was another recent solution that was developed as a catch all to refer to all many mediums that broke into the expanded field, but that installation says little about specific differences or potentials within the expanded field. He gives a quick lineage for expanded painting as installation: “Installation art as an alternative term for expanded painting has identifiable roots that thread back through Minimalism, Conceptualism, Arte Povera, Fluxus, Rauschenberg, Pollock, Duchamp, Lissitzky, Tatlin and Picasso.” Within this history, Titmarsh identifies five challenges to painting on the 100 year trajectory to expanded painting. “First stage – the challenge to mimesis and representation, from Cezanne to abstraction. Second stage – the challenge to surface and picture plane, featuring exaggeration or elimination of the frame and the interruption of the flat In an interview with Mike Cloud from 2013 when asked about his thoughts on painting, particularly "painting as an expanded, flexible discipline that has the power to absorb other media," Cloud stated: "Painting is the contemplation of a skin, a painted film. Whether a painting is on a cave wall, canvas or wood, you can always conceptually separate a painting from its support. Wall space is sacred; it is the space of windows, doors, mirrors, and other kinds of portals. Sculptures are different; they have to share a space with living things, as does architecture. A chair could be either mundane or a work of art, so could a building. But all paintings are contrivances. They are all set apart.” When asked about the expanded definition of painting since modernism and how far painting could expand, Cloud said, “That’s like you’re asking where do the boundaries of dance end, and when are you just making a fool of yourself? I don’t know if it’s something you can really explain, but you know that the boundary exists. There is a point at which you simply aren’t making a painting, but something else. Part of the skill of a painter is in proposing those boundaries. This comes from experience. You have to paint for a long time to understand it.6 I am engaged in finding the boundaries of painting for myself within my practice. Although I often engage in other disciplines, painting is a center of gravity for me, surface with unusual objects, as in synthetic cubism, constructed painting and readymades. Third stage – the challenge to the vertical picture plane, where painting leaves the wall and rests on the floor collecting debris, as in Rauschenberg and Minimalism. Fourth stage- painting abandons the picture plane to occupy space, with the division of painterly elements like frame colour, surface into object-like substitutes and their alliance with other media, as in Conceptual Art, concrete painting, where the term ‘installation art’ grows in usage. Fifth stage- painting abandons materiality and embraces experience, temporality and an indeterminate theoretical practice that awaits proper consideration.” Page 6 - 8. 6 Dying Merging Multitasking: An Interview with Mike Cloud, 2013 https://temporaryartreview.com/dying-merging-multitasking-an-interview-with-mike-cloud/ not only formally but conceptually, even if the result is distinctly sculptural, or more closely related to a different discipline. In my work, Holding You, Holding Me, I was engaged in many different sculptural processes, both digital and analogue, and despite the metal chalice and bell being powder coated, the biggest connection to painting for me lies in the total composition with the structure that supports the bell and chalice, and speaks to the history of paintings and their supports. One of the interesting things for me to reflect on is that I made the bell and chalice first. The fluidity and improvisational nature of painting is usually reserved for the image on some kind of supported substrate, but in this project, it became about the support, which was designed and built after the bell and chalice were complete. My interest in the support structure came directly from my interests in thinking about context and relationships as types of communal support structures. In the same way the bell and chalice are also containers, one that is cradling and able to hold things – in this case slip-casted 3d printed acorns, and the other is holding space above. Both forms are also a continuation of each other and are further supported by the scaffold which speaks to me about relationships and community, and the potential through relationship to create a dynamic that extends beyond an individual. Part of this interest grew from a question I brought with me when I began grad school, which was: at what point does an image on a surface breakdown into texture, and through texture become unreadable as image and, having lost the tension in being on top of the surface, begins to speak to the body of the form. And within those relationships what position does pattern occupy relative to image on the one side and texture on the other. All these conditions relate to support in some way or can be connect to the idea of context through form or surface, which either supports or disrupts an image. My formal exploration of this question did not last too long, although I do intend to continue this research. The question is still active in thinking about image and support albeit it an oblique way. The one project I created out of the intention to explore these relationships is the ceramic piece titled Skybagboot, from 2021. In this work I thought about the image power of the cloud sky which dominates the flat face of the form and then breaks down into stripes that run along the other parts of the form to emphasize its contours. This description is optimistic, I think it only reached part of the way there. In the following ceramic work, I made titled Ride or Die, I abandoned the direction of a slightly more naturalistic image. Instead, I focused more on contouring, and thought about image as surface treatment that supports form, creating an emphasis though surface which the form couldn’t reach alone. This then became more of a conceptual image, where my consideration was about appearances at large and thinking about performance and presenting, which included the combination of image and form in an integrated way. During the same time, I was working on a series of paintings that were playing with systems of meaning. They use typographical forms as reference to language and basic geometric volumes that imply a fragmented perspectival space. I had in mind the medicine drawings but was not sure how to speak about them. To ground them more with visual clues that created a scaffold for verbal description I emphasized the linguistic and perspectival elements. The paintings became a different facet of the original intention, and developed the way I was thinking in a more analytical direction. Beyond the references of typography and geometric solids these works also incorporate material, gestural that are indebted to Abstract Expressionism, but do not exist as a complete thought, being disrupted by clear reference to signs and symbols. This method of using past gestures and deploying them in new ways is something that excites me about history because the moves have become coded and exist as their own system. Amy Sillman’s does this in her work, which is often clearly indebted to Abstract Expressionism through gestural marks which are attributed to modernist painting. Sillman is intensely conscious of the history of painting and is content with, in her words, “‘squatting in the foreclosed real estate of art history.”7 I see the awareness of art history and the insertion of certain moves that can complicate each other as another facet to in creating an awareness of positionality through multiple systems of understanding that complicate each other, and can reveal the limits of these systems. 7 Laura J. Hoptman. The Forever now: contemporary painting in an atemporal world. New York: Museum of Modern Art, 2014. Page 33. I continued this exploration with the painting titled, “Nein,” from 2022. In Nein, like in the systems paintings, I painted cylinders, half-cylinders and fragments of cylinders that imply a perspectival space, and the forms of which echo typographical forms, like the letter g and the number 9 or an upper-case D. The small number 9 that is situated in the lower right-hand corner of the picture plane calls attention to the forms as typographical design that is flat and denies the volume that rendering, and perspective would grant them. They represent two systems that can create tension between one way of seeing the world and another. I don’t think this really the case for the number 9, as it exists in the implied perspectival space of the cylinders, and it can exist there without a real challenge. In this case it is up to the viewer to crash the image if they see the connections and push against the logic of implied volume. Thinking through the question of how I make sense of the world and how structures like language and tradition contribute to my understanding life, I made a series of paintings that incorporated the process of projecting light through a wooden structure. These paintings felt more personal in the way that I was thinking about specific moments or people and my relationship with them as I was creating the work. Within the process of creating the work, the other major formal and conceptual consideration was about exploring frames and images within images or a larger field of color, texture or marks. This speaks to me about context as support, with distinguishable different qualities providing ground for one another thing to emerge. This led me to a recent painting, titled Silver-bullet Janus becomes a Diamond. The more concrete image sits inside the sloppy trompe l'oeil of the globular silver forms and slips down further at the bottom of the picture plane. The image is interrupted by green lines that come out of my spatial loop line drawings. In this painting I began to think more about the figure ground relationship with the incorporation of the green line and the grey forms, which force the line to exist as a ground because of their implied volume. There is pressure in the painting and things don’t quite come together. The more figurative image creates a sense of continuity that pushes the green line forward, although the edges of both the figurative concrete image and the silvery grey forms are quite loose, and upon close inspection the painting falls apart. In the project Orbit, I continued exploring these visual dynamics of a figure ground relationship that is created by implied volumes using the highlights to create a sense of dimension. Orbit features 6 paintings displayed on a cart. The work is meant to be engaged with physically by the audience, who may move the paintings from one side of the cart to the other, initiating a circulation of the paintings, which I relate to as the dissemination of information, and the continual shifting positions which things are engaged from and with. The display of the paintings on the cart also creates a tension because some of the painted images are always unavailable to look at, although the painting as an object is present, it refuses full disclosure. The feelings that guided my process came from ending a romantic relationship with a loved one, and so a sense of hope, expectation and uncertainty were tangible experiences during making this. There is a brutal quality to the paintings that I feel from the palette and overall construction with corner pieces and cart, that feels cold and indifferent, and a remoteness from the illusionistic highlights that is simultaneously seductive and compelling in their economy. The naturalistic image that is repeated over all the paintings depicts stacks of prefab 2x4 frames for building a structure that has yet to be constructed. During the same time as I was making Orbit, I created a collaborative lithography print at Tamarind titled Blue-print Flight-path. I was thinking through the same concerns and in Orbit, and even used the same image of the stacks of wood frames, but the approach to image making was distinctly different and I diverged in my considerations as I moved through the process. I pulled from the practice of the spatial loops drawings, although I broke all the rules, and it set me on a different course that felt more open than the packaged rigidity of Orbit, however seductive. All three of these works, Silver-bullet Janus becomes a Diamond, Orbit and Blue- print Flight-plan, incorporate concrete imagery, the use of which is something I am grappling with in my practice right now. I am drawn to the power of concrete images because they can grab attention. But the power of images is a sleepy power. They grab attention partially because they are familiar, and when surrounded in an abstract field they become something to latch onto. They become an anchor and a way in, providing the viewer with something to access the painting with, like a map key. While I am interested in that dynamic, it also troubles me. To what degree is the viewing experience then a comparison of one area to the rest without finding more in the image, or arriving at a more nuanced reading? In Blue-print Flight-plan, the use of the image may be the most effective in resisting the dynamic of becoming anchor too heavily because the image is abstracted through being tiled and then large spots are removed, making which pushes the image to behave like a texture. Conclusion In the process of making some of my work I feel a sense of directness that I want to move away from. The work makes too much sense to me, and maybe that means that I am not taking enough risks. In a 2018 Interview for the Brooklyn Rail, Charlene von Heyl states regarding abstraction in her work, “Abstraction is not only about “no- meaning,” it’s also about imploding meaning. I like to have references to half-thought associations...”8 Often my associations are very concrete, and I use painting processes to separate myself from being so directly tied to things I’m thinking about or feeling and yet I have been inserting naturalistic images into my abstractions. This has been of interest to me, and I want to push the work to cultivate a greater sense of latency in meaning for myself within my work. However, within that push towards a slower less expected read of the work, I also I don’t want to lose the sense of consciousness necessary to call out and reference systems of knowledge both within art history and broader culture. I am hopeful the working from a way if being that comes out of grounded normativity can hold the many contradictions that I feel are always present for me within my practice with openness and acceptance. I do have a sense of freedom when I am felling though that way being, and I am excited to reach towards a place of feeling fully integrated within myself. I do not believe that things will be easily resolved, if ever, or that they necessarily should be, but hope that in the search for the centers and boundaries of my interests I allow myself to move freely without being paralyzed by analysis or self -doubt. The work that I want to focus on next is in the spirit of the medicine drawings, which out of all the practices I have engaged with, has the deepest resonance with me in terms of feeling in a space beyond language, even when I am using parts of language to get to that visual space. 8 https://brooklynrail.org/2018/11/art/CHARLINE-VON-HEYL-with-Raphael-Rubinstein
Everything has a context and a frame. My understanding of life is rooted in the frame of reference I have created to contextualize all my experiences. The frame of reference is a story, or an image. It is an idea I have tended, watered, and allowed to flourish within myself. I am also such a story, and my family and friends have supported me, and watered me. A community is a scaffold, supporting the continued building of stories.
Everything has a context and a frame. My understanding of life is rooted in the frame of reference I have created to contextualize all my experiences. The frame of reference is a story, or an image. It is an idea I have tended, watered, and allowed to flourish within myself. I am also such a story, and my family and friends have supported me, and watered me. A community is a scaffold, supporting the continued building of stories.
stable, stationary, stand, start, stairs, stanchion, stare, stabilize, star, stack, stage, stab, stakes, stammer, stamp, standard, stain, stay,
stable, stationary, stand, start, stairs, stanchion, stare, stabilize, star, stack, stage, stab, stakes, stammer, stamp, standard, stain, stay,
Humans are like dogs, sometimes we just want to chew.
Humans are like dogs, sometimes we just want to chew.
Over the ocean at the end of a pier, grandma rises above the water and tells me: air is stone, fire is water, wood is metal. And I know that she is telling me this world is more than it seems. Then I wake up.
Over the ocean at the end of a pier, grandma rises above the water and tells me: air is stone, fire is water, wood is metal. And I know that she is telling me this world is more than it seems. Then I wake up.
I keep wanting to find a bigger container – some ultimate truth that cradles the totality of my experience – something to contextualize life in a way that makes it make sense. How do I frame it? Everything is subject to change. And a frame needs a wall to hang on. Have I addressed what I have excluded? Cropping is turning away – shifting focus, what is excluded still exists. I could continue the cropping analogy for a long time – I could get lost in it. Again, means to an end becomes a container that cannot contain, and I was only using it to gesture. The water runs through my cupped hands, and I become distracted by the splash marks on the dirt, and after I smell the earth, I think about what it tells me about the feeling of being wet. It has occurred to me that a right angle is as conceptual as white and black – I can recognize them everywhere – but in perspective – my point of view is never perfectly flat, head-on or top-down. Black and white always appear in a context with other things that push them maybe to blue or yellow. What and how I perceive, understand, and take things to be varies. These are ways of looking – framing, contextualizing. Some boxes are mine; some aren’t. Some contain, others confine. Perhaps all I am is a collector – or that should be what I strive for; collectors choose, kleptomaniacs do not. My parents said that as a child I would take compulsively, perhaps I still do, but what I take is the way you toss your head when you laugh. Maybe I only hold onto that for a day, maybe I have forgotten that it was never my gesture to begin with. There is not much I can truly be certain of. Even the immanence of death exists as a reality that I can only see one side of. It is a right angle and I have an oblique perspective; it is a black wall that I see only from the place that I am – flooded by sunlight it looks purple. How I make sense of the world hinges on who I am and how I have built the structures that support the way I frame the world for myself, and frame myself for the world. If there is no frame, there is no understanding. Only we can frame ourselves for we know what is outside of the frame – the parts of the wall we don’t show.
I keep wanting to find a bigger container – some ultimate truth that cradles the totality of my experience – something to contextualize life in a way that makes it make sense. How do I frame it? Everything is subject to change. And a frame needs a wall to hang on. Have I addressed what I have excluded? Cropping is turning away – shifting focus, what is excluded still exists. I could continue the cropping analogy for a long time – I could get lost in it. Again, means to an end becomes a container that cannot contain, and I was only using it to gesture. The water runs through my cupped hands, and I become distracted by the splash marks on the dirt, and after I smell the earth, I think about what it tells me about the feeling of being wet. It has occurred to me that a right angle is as conceptual as white and black – I can recognize them everywhere – but in perspective – my point of view is never perfectly flat, head-on or top-down. Black and white always appear in a context with other things that push them maybe to blue or yellow. What and how I perceive, understand, and take things to be varies. These are ways of looking – framing, contextualizing. Some boxes are mine; some aren’t. Some contain, others confine. Perhaps all I am is a collector – or that should be what I strive for; collectors choose, kleptomaniacs do not. My parents said that as a child I would take compulsively, perhaps I still do, but what I take is the way you toss your head when you laugh. Maybe I only hold onto that for a day, maybe I have forgotten that it was never my gesture to begin with. There is not much I can truly be certain of. Even the immanence of death exists as a reality that I can only see one side of. It is a right angle and I have an oblique perspective; it is a black wall that I see only from the place that I am – flooded by sunlight it looks purple. How I make sense of the world hinges on who I am and how I have built the structures that support the way I frame the world for myself, and frame myself for the world. If there is no frame, there is no understanding. Only we can frame ourselves for we know what is outside of the frame – the parts of the wall we don’t show.
Values over rules - More open - why do I value something? What do rules do that values also do? It is a more organic structure.
Values over rules - More open - why do I value something? What do rules do that values also do? It is a more organic structure.
We learn to know things by the edge we use to describe its shape- but that is a profile and is the weakest in terms of a form- there is much less information about its true volume. Within musical composition things that don’t change create the identity of the piece and things that do change create the form. In storytelling that the antagonist always stays the same and does not have the developmental arc that the protagonist does. The identity of a known thing can be most easily identified by its qualities that don’t change - and furthermore that those qualities while giving a sense of identity are not meant to grow or change. The knowledge is cemented and is the antagonist in the sense of development of a point of view. It is what it is. A division is made- a cut between this and that- a distinction. Naming as a violent act. Is it possible to avoid? The distinction is supported by the ongoing antagonistic energy of maintaining this division- the thing that allows for a particular sense of identity. I am the antagonist. The I am.
We learn to know things by the edge we use to describe its shape- but that is a profile and is the weakest in terms of a form- there is much less information about its true volume. Within musical composition things that don’t change create the identity of the piece and things that do change create the form. In storytelling that the antagonist always stays the same and does not have the developmental arc that the protagonist does. The identity of a known thing can be most easily identified by its qualities that don’t change - and furthermore that those qualities while giving a sense of identity are not meant to grow or change. The knowledge is cemented and is the antagonist in the sense of development of a point of view. It is what it is. A division is made- a cut between this and that- a distinction. Naming as a violent act. Is it possible to avoid? The distinction is supported by the ongoing antagonistic energy of maintaining this division- the thing that allows for a particular sense of identity. I am the antagonist. The I am.
Redundancy produced by failed automatic systems (both a non functioning automatic soap dispenser next to a manual dispenser)
Redundancy produced by failed automatic systems (both a non functioning automatic soap dispenser next to a manual dispenser)
I am searching for the shadow of the answer. The shadow does not offer the answer directly but gestures to the context in which it exists. Calling out the answer does not express the life in the question; it is the questions death. What is the point of life? Death is certain and yet through the act of art making there is recourse to this knowledge and the sense of futility that can set in. I am making because that is what I desire to do the most. What is a good life? How will we get through this life together? I want to feel full. I want to feel connected to you, and to my surroundings. I want to love and be loved. I want to be awake. How do I understand myself and the world? I believe life is a process of unfolding this question, and staying open to it, for there is no single answer. Understanding is a living thing, and like the world and me, it is always changing.
I am searching for the shadow of the answer. The shadow does not offer the answer directly but gestures to the context in which it exists. Calling out the answer does not express the life in the question; it is the questions death. What is the point of life? Death is certain and yet through the act of art making there is recourse to this knowledge and the sense of futility that can set in. I am making because that is what I desire to do the most. What is a good life? How will we get through this life together? I want to feel full. I want to feel connected to you, and to my surroundings. I want to love and be loved. I want to be awake. How do I understand myself and the world? I believe life is a process of unfolding this question, and staying open to it, for there is no single answer. Understanding is a living thing, and like the world and me, it is always changing.
A thrift store bathroom/ A holy sanctuary/ Donations welcome/
A thrift store bathroom/ A holy sanctuary/ Donations welcome/
AI course select/ Our critical atrophy/ All roads lead to Rome/
AI course select/ Our critical atrophy/ All roads lead to Rome/
Everything became a product, pushed further that what it was; a combination of the idea of the thing and a substitute for an earlier version with less chemicals. Not original, nor authentic, and those things were always just an idea anyway. Now wood is wood product, carefully packaged, wrapped in plastic, a piece of tree trunk product, pressed in a mold- wood like particles glue and wood scent shaped into a semblance of organic growth. A natural shape repeated in the same way 500 times a minute. It smells like the real thing.
Everything became a product, pushed further that what it was; a combination of the idea of the thing and a substitute for an earlier version with less chemicals. Not original, nor authentic, and those things were always just an idea anyway. Now wood is wood product, carefully packaged, wrapped in plastic, a piece of tree trunk product, pressed in a mold- wood like particles glue and wood scent shaped into a semblance of organic growth. A natural shape repeated in the same way 500 times a minute. It smells like the real thing.
What can painting be and do? How have I thought and think about painting and how do I connect to the history and how are my gestures resonating with it and carrying things forward?
What can painting be and do? How have I thought and think about painting and how do I connect to the history and how are my gestures resonating with it and carrying things forward?
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I am interested in infrastructure and scaffolding because of how they support and reveal things about life. Infrastructure is the externalized value system of society, and I relate it to the kind of internal systems I have in place that create the conditions that structure my perception. How do I move and am I moved? How does one painted gesture affect the other? How does a patterned color field frame, support or confine an image that is situated within that field? These are simultaneously formal, abstract painting questions and questions about life. I am dedicated to abstract painting because through the arrangement of its formal qualities, it has the potential to speak to these questions by creating the conditions of the question instead a pre-formed answer. I hope that through asking the question something will be revealed about life.
I am interested in infrastructure and scaffolding because of how they support and reveal things about life. Infrastructure is the externalized value system of society, and I relate it to the kind of internal systems I have in place that create the conditions that structure my perception. How do I move and am I moved? How does one painted gesture affect the other? How does a patterned color field frame, support or confine an image that is situated within that field? These are simultaneously formal, abstract painting questions and questions about life. I am dedicated to abstract painting because through the arrangement of its formal qualities, it has the potential to speak to these questions by creating the conditions of the question instead a pre-formed answer. I hope that through asking the question something will be revealed about life.
To oppose something is to maintain it... You must go somewhere else; you must have another goal; then you walk a different road. -Ursula K. Le Guin-
To oppose something is to maintain it... You must go somewhere else; you must have another goal; then you walk a different road. -Ursula K. Le Guin-
EXHAUSTION & EXUBERANCE Ways to Defy the Pressure to Perform by Jan Verwoert The Pressure to Perform How can we address the current changes in our societies and lives? Some say that we have come to inhabit the post-industrial condition —but what does that mean? One thing seems certain: after the disappearance of manual labour from the lives of most people in the Western world, we have entered into a culture where we no longer just work, we perform. We need to perform because that is what’s asked of us. When we choose to make our living on the basis of doing what we want, we are required to get our act together and get things done, in any place, at any time. Are you ready? I ask you and I’m sure that you’re as ready as you’ll ever be to perform, prove yourself, do things and go places. Who is we? The group is ever-expanding. It is we, the creative types—who invent jobs for ourselves by exploring and exploiting our talents to perform small artistic and intellectual miracles on a daily basis. It is we, the socially engaged—who create communal spaces for others and ourselves by performing as instigators or facilitators of social exchange. When we perform, we generate communication and thereby build forms of communality.1 When we perform, we develop ideas and thereby provide the content for an economy based on the circulation of a new currency: information. In doing so, we produce the social and intellectual capital that service societies thrive on today, in the so-called Information Age. Accordingly, the Deutsche Bank sums up their corporate philosophy with the slogan A Passion to Perform. (The motto is symptomati- cally agrammatical: in English, someone can be said to have a passion for something or someone, but not a passion to.)2 Management consultants confirm that “implementing, promoting and sustaining a high performance culture” is the key to increasing corporate productivity by eliciting individual commitment and competitiveness among employees.3 So which side of the barricades are we on? Where do they stand today anyway? When do we commit to perform of our own free will? And when is our commitment elicited under false pretenses to enforce the ideology of high performance and boost someone else’s profits? How can we tell the difference? And who is there to blame, if we choose to exploit ourselves? In a high performance culture, we are the avant-garde but we are also the job-slaves. We serve the customers who consume the communication and sociability that we produce. We work in the call centers and in the kitchens of recently opened restaurants in the burgeon- ing new urban hubs of the global service society. To provide our services we are willing to travel, so we go west to perform, we go north to perform. We are everywhere, fixing the minds, houses and cars of local customers wherever we end up staying because there is work avail- able—and for as long as it’s available. Living this life of high performance we are constantly facing two questions: “Are we (still) in charge?” and: “Are we (still) happy?” They are the ques- tions of agency and the good life, and both are implied in the first question of political ethics: “How can we know what would be the right thing to do to make a better life possible for ourselves and others, now and in the future?” Every time this question arises, it leaves us craving for an overall solution, a resolute stance, a set of unassailable principles or a foundational politics that would provide us with unambiguous criteria for determining the right thing to do in each and every future 91 situation. The trouble is that just as the question only arises in situations when a specific decision is needed, it is precisely the specificity of each new situation that seems to pre-empt the very possibility of ever devising a general morale or politics that would apply to all instances. The requests, invitations or opportunities to perform tend to be connected to a set of highly particular conditions that make some instances acceptable and others impossible. Under certain circumstances a yes and a no may even seem equally justified. Moreover, the conditions under which you will perform may turn out to be completely contingent on the way in which you (re)negotiate those conditions in the process of your performance. So beyond the yes or no, beyond the either/or, there seem to be a million other options. Maybe the secret of autonomous agency and the good life lies precisely in open- ing up the space of those other options through a categorical refusal to accept the forceful imposition of any terms, leaving us no choice but to choose between either yes or no? Yes No and Other Options 4 Kirkegaard proposed the view that only he who faced up to the full challenge of the either/or, and based his life on a rigorous and binding choice, truly chose to choose (and thus acted ethically). Anyone who deflected this choice refrained from choosing at all and merely dabbled in the boundless sphere of inconsequential possibilities (the sphere of the aesthetic). Whether this view is still justified seems doubtful.5 The experience of the dictatorial regimes of modernity has attuned us to the fact that the imposition of binding choices is precisely how the power of ideology manifests itself in the pressure of social control. When a nation goes to war, for instance, the leader will confront you with a binding either/or choice: “You’re either with us or against us.” All other ways to position yourself are over- ruled by the forceful assertion of a single set of options to choose from: Friend or Foe. Consumer society conversely proclaims to be founded on the principle of limitless choice, most vividly epitomised by Microsoft’s iconic slogan Where do you want to go today? (It was used from 1994 to 2002, since replaced by Your Potential. Our Passion.) In adopting this motto, the company promised that their product came with unlimited choice options built-in and could thus serve as a universally applicable perfor- mance tool for whatever personal purpose. The irony of this promise lies in the fact that the system on which computing machines operate is a binary logic of zeros and ones. In other words, it is a system based on the constant repetition of either/or choices. This irony becomes tangible the moment you realise that the generous offer to go wherever you want effectively entitles you only to select a predefined option from the menu of a computer program. This moment of realisation may very well exemplify the way in which we encounter the ideological regime of our high performance consumer culture and service society. We encounter it in a moment of suspicion (if not paranoia) when we dimly sense that our willingness to perform might be elicited under a false premise of opening up limitless possibilities—which is, in fact, merely pressure to enact predefined options and thereby enforce the system of control that defines them. Returning to the question of political ethics (“How can we know what is to be done to make a better life possible for ourselves and others, now and in the future?”) we then face a two-fold challenge: 1. to understand the conditions of our agency in order to enable us to define them according to our own terms; and 2. to imagine another logic of agency, an ethos, which could help us defy the social pressure to perform and eschew the promise of the regimented options of consumption. If we perceive the pressure to perform to be innately linked to the regi- mentation of options, to imagine the ethos of a resistant practice implies an exploration of the conditions, situations and potentialites that lie beyond the option menus and the exclusivity of the yes and no. In artistic practice this dedication to imagining other ways to perform and other ways to enjoy consumption means claiming the imagination and the aesthetic experience as a field of collective agency where workable forms of resistance can be devised. I Can’t But what would it mean to put up resistance against a social order in which high perfor- mance has become a growing demand, if not a norm? What would it mean to resist the need to perform? Is “resistance” even a useful concept to evoke in this context? Are the forms of agency that we commonly associate with resistance not modes of high performance themselves? Grand gestures of revolt tend to be overpoweringly assertive. They thrive on the rush of the moment when things really start happening (the crowd surges forwards, the water cannons start shooting). In this sense they actually exemplify the core momentum realise that, yes, he does have time for this —an entire lifetime dedicated to the project of stopping people like you from having their way? This slow man may turn out to be a guardian of the social equilibrium, protecting peace and sanity by preventing insanely restless perform- ers like you from changing things for the worse. Or he may merely represent an older system of control and alienation—the bureaucratic apparatus—that is increasingly coming into conflict with its successor, the regime of high performance. In any case the question remains: Can we learn something from the traditional know-how of casual uncooperativeness when we seek to put up defenses against a culture of compulsive high performance? Punk was exactly about this: the unwilling- ness to submit to industry standards of what music can or can’t be and how professional musicians should deal with what they can or can’t do. This resulted in the transgression of personal capacities by rigorously embracing personal incapacities, rising above demand by frustrating all expectations. In this respect, Stuart Bailey pointed out the iconic status that the closing moment of the Sex Pistols’ final performance: In the video recording of the show, the band are visibly drained of energy as their last song “No Fun” drags on into an endless coda, and their wild posturing routine terminally exhausts itself. As the performance disintegrates completely and ends, singer Johnny Rotten, visibly alienated by both the band and the whole situation, sneers at the audience: “Ever get the feeling you’ve been cheated?” At the point of exhaustion, the performance of the I Can’t interrupts the economy of expectations and throws its workings into relief, producing an empty moment of full awareness. Could we imagine a form of agency that consists in producing an ongoing series of such moments of interruption and awareness? Since the mid-1960s the art practice of Slovakian artist Július Koller has been precisely that:a series of small interruptive acts performed in public and private space, provoking situations in which the potential for difference becomes tangible. In his 1965 Anti-Happening mani- festo, Koller stated that, as a means of artistic practice, the Happening was an insufficient gesture because it was merely another “way to put an artistic act into action.” His concept of the Anti-Happening suggested an alternative use of “[the] means of textual designation” and “cultural demarcation” to effect a “cultural reshaping of the subject (and) an awareness of the surroundings.”6 Koller’s Anti-Happenings consequently consisted, for instance, in graffiti- ing a question mark or an endless wave onto a street wall with whipped cream, or in staging a table tennis match in a gallery as a social model of direct intersubjective exchange. The photo of the Anti-Happening Casopriestorové vymedzenie psychofyzickej cinnosti matérie (1968), for instance, shows him in the act of redrawing the tramlines of a tennis court with a chalk-dispensing cart. The title translates as “Time/Space Definition of the Psycho-physi- cal Activity of Matter“ and thus designates this act as work—in the most basic sense of its defi- nition in physics as the activity of displacing matter in space. Work, or artistic labour, is then defined by the simple gesture of drawing a line (or marking a difference) that designates the space as a site for a possible encounter between two people as players with equal rights in the game. It is an operation on the margins whilst staking a claim on those same margins. Koller continued to perform such Anti- Happenings with an attitude of casual insis- tence, but from a position quite literally on the margins of a society. Due to the political regime in power, the art he was practising was practically barred from public recognition. Yet Koller’s insistence on the possibility of making art on his own terms turned his work from a marginal practice into a practice of performing the margins; a performance of demarcating the limits of the existing society by pointing beyond them towards other possibilities. The photo Monologika—Jojo (U.F.O.) [Monologic— Yo-Yo] (1982), for instance, depicts him playing with a big white Yo-Yo in front of a group of mind-numbingly dull apartment blocks. The cipher “U.F.O.” in the title is a key to Koller’s work, as a central part of his practice consisted of finding ever-new permutations of the acronym. In diagram drawings it came to stand for Univerzálna Futurologická Organizácia [Universal Futurological Organi-sation] (1972–3), Univerzálny Filozoficky Ornament [Universal Philosophical Ornament] (1978) or Underground Fantastic Organisation (1975), to name a few. Collectively, the potentially infinite variations on the cipher “U.F.O.” form a continu- ous cheeky incantation of the Utopian principle. By representing the possibility of other possi- bilities, they point to all other options outside of high performance itself: they make something happen and deliver an event. Should we then not rather look for other, more subtle ways of performing dissent? What silent but effective forms of non-alignment, non-compliance, uncooperativeness, reluctance, reticence, weariness or unwillingness do we find in every- day life? There are, for instance, those covert survival tactics of the workplace accumulated by generations of employees devising ever-new schemes to avoid performing the task they’re asked to perform in the way (or at the time and speed at which) they are required to do so. Can we embrace such forms of anti-performance in art and thinking as forms of art and thinking? Or do we inevitably find ourselves in the same position as the high performers who are enraged by slow people standing in their way? Uncooperativeness may well be the revenge that uncreative people take on creative society by wilfully stopping it in its tracks. Have you ever found yourself screaming or wanting to scream at an uncooperative clerk behind a counter: “I haven’t got time for this!” only to Why does it take other people to stop us from performing in the first place? Why do we not dismiss the need to perform of our own accord? What can make us utter the magic words I Can’t? Does it take a breakdown to stop us? Does the utterance of the words I Can’t already constitute or confirm a breakdown, a failure to perform, justifiable only if our body authenticates our incapacity by refusing to function? How could we restore dignity to the I Can’t? How could we avoid becoming backed into a corner where the I Can’t would merely be perceived as a passive-aggressive stance of denial? In other words: How can we embrace the I Can’t without depriving ourselves of our potential to act? Could we unlock the I Can’t as a form of agency? Reportedly, Gerhard Richter used to have a poster next to his phone with one single word printed on it in big letters: NO. As compelling as this may seem, the categorical no in this case only functions as (because it is) a response to an existing demand—and therefore a move within a stable economy that supports or even rewards it (rarified supply enhances the demand and raises the price). So the question is rather how performing the I Can’t could effectively interrupt the self-contained economic cycle of supply and demand and truly break the spell of the pressure to produce for the sake of production. of the given regime of options imposed on social The Beauty of Latency coquettish flirtation with opacity) but because it can’t. If it could, it would lose its capacity to address the potential reality of all that is presently not given in actuality (i.e. all the possibilities that lie beyond those already actualised within the dominant mode of think- ing and acting.) make you aware of the fact that these forms are the outcome of a long painterly process of continuous revision and overpainting in which nothing is fixed or decided at the painting’s conception. Still, this painterly process does not assert itself as a dramatic form of agency. It defies the melodrama of process that abstract expressionism performed. It is only through paint nooks, uneven edges, strange overlaps of shapes or surprising symmetries between askewed axes that the decisions made in every stage of the work’s execution become tangible in their latent presence. Beyond the grand gesture, Abts thereby proposes a very particular model of agency: a model of how time can be spent making decisions in relation to what you want something to be. A crucial question in painting (as in writ- ing) is how to start and where to end. In a high performance culture, the beginning and end of each given task is defined with brutal clarity. All parameters are set by an outside demand, and the job must be performed as fast as possible to meet the impending deadline. On the contrary, in painting (as in writing) the begin- ning and end of the work are defined through an immanent demand, as the decisions about how to start and conclude are choices that shape the very identity of a piece. It is only by concluding in a particular way, that the piece establishes its own standards of completion and demonstrates why it had to be the way it is. Work that incorpo- rates the memory of its own process in this way constitutes its own parameters of time both in- and outside of itself. This is a time that stretches into long days and nights of pushing towards something, only to collapse into split-seconds of sudden discoveries; a time that can retroactively change its face as it re-invents its own beginning at the end. Through its immanent temporal- ity such work is structurally at odds with any regimented notion of time. It interrupts the homogeneous pace of high performance culture through the immanent rhythm of expanded and compressed, delayed and accelerated time of the memory at work in the process of its making. life by the dominant system of governance. The various interpretations of the acronym perform the utopian principle: first of all because the infinite play on the name realises the potentials of the imagination as a radical form of free agency; secondly, because the performance of infinite renaming operates on the dialectic of affirmation and deferral that is crucial to utopian thought. Utopian thought portrays a different world as presently not yet existing but realistically within reach. In this sense, Mark E. Smith’s ingenious mantra “I can’t get it now but I can get it” (from the Von Südenfed track “Fledermaus Can’t Get It”, 2007) is a shorthand formula for the way in which the utopian drive suspends the opposition between the I Can’t and the I Can, allowing each one to embody the realisation of the other. Nietzsche argued that to realise a fundamen- tal critique of bad faith means to move beyond cynicism and embrace a radical optimism that exceeds the petty dialectics of expectation and disappointment. (Invoking such an attitude of defiant optimism, I feel indebted to Paulina Olowska for pointing out the key role this spirit played in the art and pop culture that contin- ued heroic modernism after the Second World War.) Koller’s art epitomises this optimism, as it demonstrates the potentiality of what I propose to call an existential exuberance, i.e., a way to perform without any mandate or legitimation, in response to the desires and dreams of other people, but without the aim or pretense of merely fulfilling an existing demand. It is a way of always giving too much of what is not pres- ently requested. It is a way of giving what you do not have to others who may not want it. It is a way of transcending your capacities by embracing your incapacities and therefore a way to interrupt the brute assertiveness of the I Can through the performance of an I Can’t performed in the key of the I Can. It is a way of insisting that, even if we can’t get it now, we can get it, in some other way at some other point in time. Another mode of performing the I Can’t in the key of the I Can that art and poetry have always used to great effect is to create moments in which meaning remains provocatively latent. To embrace latency goes against the grain of the logic of high performance. The appraisal of latency restores dignity to the unsaid, the unshown, and everything that can’t be dragged out into the open in the rush of high performance when the value of all our potentials appears to depend entirely on our capacity to actualise them right here, right now. The fatal consequence of a continuous pressure to perform is the exhaustion of all our potentials precisely because the current social order denies the value of latency, the value of a poten- tiality that remains presently unactualised and quite possibly can’t ever be exhaustively actualised. It seems that we have to learn to re-experience the value and beauty of latency. Again the I Can’t implied in the unwilling- ness to fully spell out the meaning of something that cannot be forced into the open (an idea, a feeling, a motive etc.) must not be under- stood as a denial of agency. On the contrary, the insistence to speak—or make work in any other way—about that which is neither readily understandable nor immediately useful is in itself a strong claim to agency: I Can speak or make work about what I Can’t speak or make work about. While this in a more general sense applies to any form of art or writing, it may have a special bearing on abstract work.6 The provocation of abstraction in thinking as much as in painting or sculpture, for instance, lies precisely in this insistence on addressing and not addressing its subject in the very same instant. The capacity of abstract thought and work to invoke ideas in the most concise way is intrinsically linked to the impossibility of its exhaustive verification through positive facts. Whereby abstract thought and work insists on the latency of meaning not because it won’t disclose its immediate meaning (i.e. out of a It may be that some of the oldest forms of creative manual labour, such as painting or writing, further the cultivation of a particularly intimate relationship to latent meanings. As you write or paint, words you have read or images you have seen elsewhere (including those which you have forgotten you read or saw) are pres- ent in your work as latent memories. The same latencies are at play in the moment of reading or looking at a painting as the words of the pages you have read before reverberate in the words you presently read and the images you have been exposed to resonate with what you see when you look at what you presently face. Explicating these latencies by forcing them out onto the page or canvas in their brute actual- ity would mean to obliterate the deep space of memory that the immanent echoes and delays of the medium generate. How can the potential of these latencies be activated? How do you open up the space of echo and delay? In her abstract paintings, Esther Stocker, for instance, does this by projecting several graphic grid structures on top of one another. The structures then echo and displace each other through the delay that occurs in your visual perception when you try and fail to read them as one coherent pattern and the structures begin to waver. This is the experience of the latency at the heart of any structure, the latent grids that quiver through the visible ones just like latent thoughts make words tremble on the page. In Tomma Abts’s abstract paintings this latency resides in the texture of their surface. At first glance, the shapes of the abstract figures and constellations in her work seem so clearly defined that you would assume they had been painted in one shot. Nooks of paint around the edges of each form then, however, OT Acrylic on cotton, 140 � 160 cm (Esther Stocker, 2007) Time/space Definition of the Psychophysical Activity of Matter 1, 2 (Anti-Happening) (Július Koller, 1968) Just in Time Performance is all about timing. A comedian with a bad sense of timing is not funny, a musi- cian useless. Career opportunities, we are told, are all about being in the right place at the right time, and so, perhaps, is finding a lover. Is there a right time for love? These days, over- worked couples are advised to reserve “quality time” for one another to prevent their relation- ship from losing its substance. What is quality time? “Is it a good time for you to talk?” people will ask when they reach you on your mobile. When is a good time to talk? We live and work in economies based on the concept of “just-in- time” production—and “just-in-time” usually means things have to be ready in no time at all. Who sets the urgent pace according to which all others are measuring their progress? Or rather: Who sets the pace of planned obsolescence that keeps people buying the same product in slightly upgraded designs over and over again, allowing industry to thrive on the constant over-production of what will essentially be tomorrow’s waste? This is the question Dexter Sinister (publisher of this essay) is asking and attempting to answer by seeking not only alternative modes of production, but also other means—or ecologies—of circulation. For instance, re-publication is offered as a form to keep thoughts in the loop, beyond the date of their planned obsolescence. The timing of just-in-time production, moreover, seems to be the defining force at the heart of the pressure to perform. To be in sync with just-in-time production essentially means that you have to be ready to perform all the time and at all times. Are you ready? is the ques- tion you must be prepared to answer positively: As ready as I’ll ever be. A whole etiology of high performance culture could be based on studying the current use of this term. “Are you ready?” asks smooth operator Danny Ocean (George Clooney) in the block- buster Ocean’s 13 (2007), to which self-styled gentleman criminal Terry Benedict (Andy potentials of an anti-oedipal interpretation of the I Can. Through deflecting the demands of the dominant reality principle, the I Can, performed in the key of the anti-oedipal, may effectively create a different (and no less factual) reality in which the unrequested exuberance of desire—rather than demand or discipline—determines what is real. this period in its “actual” length as two long weeks. An apparent gap of thirteen days thus opens up between the two economies of time. What happened to this time? The space of circulation absorbed it. Such time-lags can cause even the most intimate long-term relationships to fall apart. As progressively more people can, want or have to circulate to keep up with the pace of high performance, just as many people cannot or do not want to circulate. One of the most existential questions we thus face concerns the possibility of convivi- ality and communiality under the conditions of a division of time through spatial distance: How do we want to share time together, when work divides time in previously unknown geographical dimensions? How can we try to bridge these differences in time—the time-lags created by circulation—which question the very possibility of intimate relationships? Roman Ondák has proposed a whole series of ways to potentially share the experience of circulation; that is, to share precisely that experience of the insurmountable difference in time and space that disrupts the horizon of shared experience. One form this takes is through the use of invitations to participate in international exhibitions as an occasion to cultivate his correspondence with the people he lives with. In Antinomads (2000) for instance, Ondák asked friends and family members in his hometown of Bratislava whether they consi- dered themselves to be nomads or antinomads. He then photographed those who identified themselves as antinomads in a location of their choice, e.g. in front of their bookshelves, at their own desk, in the garden or on their bed surrounded by cuddly toys. Each picture was made into a set of postcards, and these postcards were then distributed freely in the locations where the work was later exhibited. Through this work Ondák thus performs a symbolic exchange: the antinomads give their picture to the nomadic artist and he, in return, sends them on a journey by allowing their pictures to circulate in other places. Garcia) promptly replies: “I was born ready.” Subsequently Clooney, Garcia and a cast of selected Hollywood high performers rise up to the challenge summed up in the movie’s pitch: “What does it take to steal 500 million in three point five minutes?” Even in its ostentatious self-irony the movie essentially glorifies what Jean-Luc Nancy calls an operative community: a mythic bond of male heroes who come together to complete a task. In the film, the heroes team up to revenge their godfather by driving his enemy, a Las Vegas casino developer, to ruin. They acquire all kinds of equipment and exper- tise and burn enormous amounts of money. They do all it takes to get the job done and succeed, and yet their success somehow smacks of fatal- ism. What else would we expect a Hollywood high performer to do, but to satisfy and deliver? Even in the mode of self-irony, he can’t perform the I Can’t; as a prototypical man of action, he remains chained to an inviolate I Can. In a much more subversive form the celebration of the I Can implied in the continous unconditional readiness to perform is inter- preted by the eponymous hero of the children’s cartoon programme Spongebob Squarepants. Spongebob, a tiny yellow sea sponge who lives in the submarine smalltown of Bikini Bottom, loves to unreservedly greet any new morning by exuberantly chanting: “I’m ready! I’m ready! I’m ready-eady-eady-eady-eady!” He then usually spends his day working in a dingy fast food joint, the Krusty Krab, where his remark- able talents at frying patties are shamelessly exploited by the owner, a Scrooge-like crab. This exploitation has no impact on Spongebob, however, since frying patties happens to be one of his most favorite pastimes. He effectively lives a free and happy life because, coinci- dentally, he does what he loves to do, and as such the idea that he may have reasons to feel alienated never dawns on him. His unassail- able naiveté affords him the gift of an exuber- ance so contagious that the dire reality of his surroundings pales in the light of his optimism. Spongebob’s incredible resilience evokes the Unfortunately, even if you manage to shrug it off exuberantly, the dominant reality principle tends to find painful ways of reasserting itself. In this sense, one such painful reminder produced by the timing of high performance culture is the curent global experience of divided, alienated time. Today, time is becom- ing progressively disjointed as the “developed” countries push ahead into a science fiction economy of dematerialised labour and virtual capital—and simultaneously push the “devel- oping” countries centuries back in time by outsourcing manual and industrial labour that imposes working conditions on them from the times of early industrialisation. Sometimes this time gap doesn’t even have to span centuries —it might be only a few years, as some former Eastern European countries are currently experiencing (rapidly catching up to the speed of advanced capitalism, but perhaps still not rapidly enough). Migrant workers bridge this gap, travelling ahead in time to work in the fast cities of the West and the North, yet facing the risk of any time-traveller losing touch with the time that passes while they are away. Can you find your way back into the time zone you left when you learn to inhabit the time zone of a country that purports to be your future? How many time-zones can you inhabit and still live happily? One of the most painfully difficult aspects to grasp and live with in this respect, is that life goes on at a different pace in the place you have temporarily left behind when you travel to work. With an abundance of experience, a two-week journey may feel like a single long day. On returning, however, you may come to realise that someone who stayed at home experienced Contradicting the pressure to be mobile, Ondák restores dignity to the postion of people who defy this pressure by presenting them as heroes of anti-mobility. At the same time, however, he also draws a fine yet crucial line between this position and the reactionary resentments against a global culture that neo- conservative parties today incite and profit from. By insisting on circulating the pictures of the antinomads internationally, Ondák negoti- ates the value of their reluctance within the context of a global culture. He thereby cheek- ily frees the position of the anti-nomad from a negative proximity to a politics of isolationism, in the tradition of the vade mecum (taking along a picture of family and friends to a foreign place is an intimate gesture of love and allegiance). Symbolically at least, the rupture in the horizon of shared experience is then bridged by the fact that the traveller imparts the conditions of his existence on those who do not travel, by circulating their image. Ondák demonstrates that if we seek to break the high performance spell that threatens the possibility of intimacy through insurmountable time-lags, we must devise counter-spells and learn to perform a kind of relational voodoo whereby we invoke the ghosts of the absent others wherever we end up being, to share our life with them. The Exuberant I Can picture through this painterly form, and it is precisely this moment of abstraction that draws out the intrinsic exuberance of the formalised body language of ballet. This exuberance resides in the gesture freed from any other purpose but to communicate the idea of bodies commu- nicating. Depicted in the mode of abstraction, dance then becomes a cipher for a communality that is not organised towards an ulterior end, a task or function it has to perform on demand. In its abstract form, the exuberant community remains inoperative. Collectivity and disaggre- gation are performed by those present, coming together and falling apart in ways that are solely determined through bodily articulation. What the paintings represent, then, is a utopian state of exuberance. In her work Hilary Lloyd also focuses on the sheer exuberance of the gesture, yet she reaches this point less through abstraction and more through the specific observation of a vernacular body language. Car Wash (2005), for example, consists of four slide projections, each comprised of 80 slides. As the slides change with the pace of a very slow movie, they intensify your experience of place by unhinging your sense of time. The pictures show a group of young Arab men working at a car wash in Sheffield. Lloyd’s camera picks out numerous details of their body language. You see how the biceps of a man in a vest ripple as he lifts a hose to rinse a car, or how a gold necklace glitters between the zip of a tracksuit, opened just wide enough to reveal it. You sense that the men know how to let these things show. It’s a defiant form of exuberance, as none of the defining features of their performance is determined by the requirements of the work they do. And it is precisely through this moment of exuberance that the men erase the stigma of a low-paid job, transforming it instead into a platform for a performance in which the cars become mere props for a demonstration of pride. Here Lloyd pays tribute to the body politics of pure attitude. The men at the car wash have exactly what the fashion industry But they didn’t buy it and they don’t sell it; they just have it. Many a stylist, model or musician would give their right arm to have it, too, but it’s not for sale. As in Theorema, the acts of exuberance interrupt a labour regime in which only purposeful production counts as agency, and instead opens up a space in which the I Can exists in the form of an untradable surplus. Who Cares? But in what way do we experience the I Can when we release it from the demands of high performance and economic productivity? Giorgio Agamben argues that this experience is “for each of us, perhaps the hardest and bitterest experience possible: the experience of potentiality.”8 In one sense the horror of the I Can could be understood as the infinite challenge to truly face the reality of your desires in a state when no outside demands or prohibi- tions protect you from asking the terrifying question: Tell me what you want, what you really really want? In another sense, however, the challenge of the I Can is not simply or solely a reflection of your own desires. As Irit Rogoff points out, Agamben actually relates it to a moment of existential indebtedness to others.9 To make this point, he recounts the story in which Russian poet Anna Akhmatova describes how and why she became a writer. Standing outside a Leningrad prison in 1930 where her son was a political prisoner, a woman whose son was also imprisoned, addressed Akhmatova with the question: “Can you speak of this?” She realised that she had to respond yes— indeed she could—and in this moment found herself both indebted and empowered.10 Thinking through this link between indebtedness and empowerment may prove crucial, precisely because the thought goes against the very grain of high performance culture. Its demand to be ever-ready relies on the assumption that you could be. It is based on the illusion that each individual should be If we return now to the notion of exuberance implied in a way to perform the I Can that trans- gresses the predefined demands: Could such exuberance be a way to interrupt the order of the division of time and space imposed on social life by the culture of high performance? In his film Theorema, Pasolini draws up precisely such a scenario of unleashed performativity. The film starts with a scene in which a factory owner hands over his factory to the workers. (The film involves a temporal reversal: the beginning of the film is actually its conclusion, and the gesture that ends the working life of the factory owner is a latent decision which takes shape Could we collectively inhabit such a condi- tion of exuberant performativity? In her recent paintings Silke Otto-Knapp points towards this possibility. The works are based on her ongoing study of the forms in which modern ballet has translated patterns of social life into dance. Otto-Knapp appropriates selected moments from this history and transforms them into pictures that focus attention on the specific formalised body language through which dance reflects the relation of the individual to the collective. Many of the works are painted in monochromatic silver tones, others in lumi- nescent water-colours. Abstraction enters the 100 over the course of subsequent events.) Although it lies close to the factory, the villa of the owner is a space in which the regime of labour is suspended. Consequently, it is a space where time is undivided and endless; a time of infinite boredom; in a space that seems without struc- ture, through which members of the staff and family move about aimlessly. This comfortable situation changes when, at short notice, a young man arrives. He is devoid of personality or any other form of distinction apart from the fact that he is a charming lover. Over the course of the film he sleeps with all members of the family and leaves again. Suddenly liberated by love, all family members now start to perform: the son acknowledges his homosexuality and becomes a painter; the daughter decides to never move nor speak again; the mother cruises the streets, having casual sex with random young men; the maid refrains from killing herself and instead becomes a saint; the factory owner undresses himself in the train station and walks off into a nearby volcano. All these acts are portrayed as possessing identical value, all suddenly seem equally possible, and none of the individual “performances” negates the potential of any of the others. Pasolini thereby invokes a situation where the end of work and the arrival of love creates the potential for a radical co-existence of ways to perform the I Can and I Can’t which are not forced under the yoke of a dominant impera- tive to perform in one way and one way alone. 101 capitalises on: they have it, i.e., attitude. able to generate an inexhaustable potency solely from his own resources. This illusion is as self-aggrandising as it is fatal, because it is only through assuming you had such inexhaustable potency that you willingly accept the request to prove it, then take it to heart when you are repri- manded for failing to do so. To point out that the potential to perform is a gift and debt received from others involves shattering the illusion on which high performance culture is founded. But what does it mean to assume that we are always already deeply indebted to others when we perform? In what way is it precisely this indebt- edness to others that enables us to perform in the first place? How could we develop the ethos of a mode of performance that acknowledges the debt to the other instead of asserting the illusion of the infinite potency of the self? One way to acknowledge the debt is to pay tribute to those who have enabled you to prac- tice what you do by inspiring you. With regard to inspiration, the I Can is realised in a very partic- ular way because another person’s thoughts, works or conversation make you experience the liberating sensation of potentiality that, yes, you can also think, feel, speak and act this way. To feel inspired essentially means to realise I Can because You Do. Any form of work that unfolds through addressing the work of others (including this essay) thrives on this sensation. To put the moment of inspiration into practice and act upon the implications of the realisation that I Can because You Do involves transforming the debt to the other into a pro-active gesture of dedicating one’s practice to this other. Overcoming the fear of influence, we could then move towards a politics of dedication. The work of Frances Stark thrives on such a politics of dedication. In both her visual and written work she continuously borrows and quotes and transforms what she borrows and quotes. Yet, the gesture of appropriation in her work, as much as it always echoes an act of stealing, first of all communicates a sense of appreciation that precisely reflects the conver- sion of a debt into a dedication. The space her other voices resonate through her voice, but where her voice remains very distinctively hers. The oedipal hierarchies of godfathers and disci- ples, progenitors and epigones are effectively toppled in this continuum, where the ghosts can only speak when the one who summons them speaks too. In this space such hierarchies are dismantled and displaced by a form of commu- nality and conviviality with the ghosts of those whose presence may be felt through a work. At one point in the conceptual text piece Structures that fit my opening and other parts considered to the whole (2006), mischievously offered in the form of a Powerpoint presentation, Stark hints at the social model of communality that such a politics of appreciation implies through its anti-economical motivation. She writes that in composing a poem (dedicated, as it were, to one particular person or maybe many) she was pondering “the possibility of liberating oneself from a cycle of disengaged production motivated by a craving for legitimising praise. Paradoxically, I looked toward a mutual admira- tion society—to that ecstatic reciprocal atten- tion-paying of lovers—as an alternative model for understanding how and why intellectual equals might freely collaborate.” This could form the first paragraph for an unwritten (and maybe unwritable) constitution of a community committed to the politics of dedication. I Care To practice a politics of dedication and recog- nise an indebtedness to the other as the condi- tion of your own ability to perform means to acknowledge the importance of care. You perform because you care for someone or some- thing. This care gives you the strength to act, not least because to not act is out of the question when someone or something you really care for or about requires that you should act. In conver- sation Annika Eriksson summed this point up by describing the experience that, as a mother, (when your child is in need of you) “there is no no.” This unconditional demand forces you to realise that you can even if you thought you couldn’t. By definition, then, the I Care implies the potential of an unconditional I Can. The decisive difference between this mode of unconditional potentiality and the illusion of inexhaustable potency, however, lies in the fact that the experience of uncondi- tional care is one that comes to us both from and through the other. Paradoxically, you are freed from the economic regime of demand by virtue of a debt to the other; in other words, the existential demand will always overrule the economic one. And since it is unconditional and existential rather than economical, the I Care is equally the force behind an incommen- surable surplus of exuberance. That extra bit of time and attention we invest into our personal relations as well as our work is precisely what makes these relations and this work un-econom- ical. It’s a surplus that can never be justified by economic standards, but it’s the source of our modus operandi when we care. The I Care has radical implications because, while it can provide the sensation of an uncon- ditional I Can, it can equally radically delimit it. When you recognise the priority of care for someone or something, this commitment may, under certain circumstances, oblige you to turn down an offer or request to perform that you otherwise might have gladly accepted. In this situation to profess the I Can’t (do this job, participate in this event) is then the only adequate way to show that you care—for the friends, family, children or lovers who require your presence, or for the continuation of a long-term creative practice that takes its time. Likewise, the recognition that you are exhausting yourself and need to take care of your health can under these conditions consti- tute a reason to decline an offer to perform and utter the I Can’t. To practice a politics of dedication then means to recognise the I Care as the source both of the I Can and the I Can’t. The I Care is also, then, a question of welfare—a pertinent issue in the context of Politically speaking, this is the question of organised solidarity. Ethically speaking, however, there is a fundamental problem: when we fully realise the implications of the I Care, we are forced to acknowledge that the potential- ity of care can never be collectively organised, because the debt to the other implied in the I Care is always radically particular. To gener- alise it means to obliterate its very momentum. In conversation Gitte Villesen formulated this criticism in relation to what she marked out as the intrinsic arrogance of a social democratic idea of welfare: because it generalises care, the social reality of institutionalised solidarity and welfare results in a top-down imposition of the standards of a good life on demographi- cally-categorised population groups. Organised care, she continued, can only address its subject indifferently as “Them” (an anonymous collec- tive entity whose needs are to be administered from a distanced position, as in “Them, the immigrants, the single mothers, etc.”) and never as the “You” of a direct encounter with the need of the other. In her own practise, Villesen performs a critique of the administration of welfare by using documentary video to provoke such direct encounters in which the force of the demand placed on the artist by the other can be fully experienced. It seems the potential of such a politics of welfare may only be truly realised when it retains the moment of disor- ganisation that the particularity of care inevi- tably produces—at the very moment it becomes collective. 102 work opens up is an open continuum in which 103 the widespread dismantling of the welfare state. In a recent talk Jimmy Durham cited two people he had met in Italy as saying: “We are liber- ated. What we need now is a better life.”11 This anecdote might help us rephrase the question of political ethics, from “How can we know what is to be done to make a better life possible for ourselves and others, now and in the future?” to: “How could we collectively realise the free- dom and demands of I Can and I Can’t in the key of I Care and claim the right to create the conditions for a better life for everybody?” The Bride’s Chamber Scene Watercolour and gouache on canvas, 100 � 100 cm (Silke Otto-Knapp, 2005) Car Wash 4 � 80 slides, 4 � Kodak Ektapro 5020 slide projectors, 4 � Unicol projector stands (Hilary Lloyd, 2005) Use Me Up high performance culture endorsed by advanced captitalism. Complete exhaustion is a state we both fear and seek to reach. To one day run out of ideas and things to say is what creative people dread more than anything else. Yet, at the same time one of the strongest driving forces behind creative work continues to be the desire to push an idea to its limits, to go to extremes and only stop when all possibilities have been exhausted and, looking at the result of your efforts, you realise with pleasurable horror: this is it, this is how it must be, it could have been different, but now that the hour is late, the deadline has passed, the opening of the show or premiere of the performance is about to start, there is no way you could still change anything. Time is up and you are finally relieved from the pressure to perform.12 This build-up of conflicting emotions around the end of work— the completion of a particular work as well as the depletion of all possibilities to make further work— is at the heart of the drama by which artists and intellec- tuals in modernity have learned to experience the climax and crisis of their work as a radical form of exhaustion. It is also through this drama that avant-gardes asserted their power to bring art (as it was) to an end by terminating tradition, either to liberate following generations or to leave them with nothing more to do. This drama is far from over. On the contrary, it has become a general social condition. As the post-industrial societies of the global north are increasingly organised around flexible, imma- terial and creative labour, complete personal exhaustion in the form of the much-feared burn- out syndrome has become a collective experi- ence of professionals in all sectors of the service society and new creative industries who feel pressed to perform to the best of their talent and abilities on their job every day. Bizarrely then, the heartfelt belief that “it’s better to burn out than to fade away” that used to set the rebellious devotees of countercultural creativ- ity apart from obedient employees, now seems to have become the first commandment of the Parallel to the way in which futurist avant- gardes had demanded the museums to be burned to release art production into a state of pure presence, the economic rationale of just-in-time production lies in the realisation that the storage of goods in warehouses is too costly and has to be replaced by models of distribution where the consumer or client can access the desired service or product right away (ideally through downloading). Museums and warehouses remain as sites that retain temporal latency. But in a high performance culture there is no time for latencies; all potentials of production must be actualised right away, the faster the better. Under the economic impera- tive of high performance, just-in-time-produc- tion is boosted by the buzz and justified by the necessity of the moment because any choice taken under extreme time pressure is without alternatives. As the range of possibilities is always already exhausted when there is no time to consider other options, acts performed in the nick of time appear to be powered by the full force of necessity. Anyone working under the conditions of just-in-time production by defini- tion labours and lives in a constant state of exhaustion. But is an economy based on systematic exhaustion not bound to collapse at any time? If current forms of capitalism purposefully sustain a sense of crisis to increase the urgency of production, it does indeed seem inevitable that the whole system should soon spiral out of control. Such apocalyptic prognoses, however, have been popular ever since the 1960s, when consumer culture came to increasingly thrive on excessive overspending and thus seemed to head right towards economic meltdown. Yet, until now nothing like that has happened. So it seems more probable that overspending and exhaustion are simply moments in the cyclical patterns of capitalism’s reproduction and regeneration. As more and more people burn out the whole machine gets fired up. What would it mean to escape this vicious cycle and break the spell of the death drive towards exhaustion? One option, of course, is to start taking care of yourself. It is no coincidence that after having exhaustively analysed how people willingly submit to the systematic exploitation of their life energy, Foucault should aptly title his final book The Care of the Self. In it he portrays the practical wisdom ancient Greek and Roman culture gathered in its reflections on how to live a good life. Instead of fixed norms, Foucault writes, ancient ethics and dietics encouraged free men to find their own style of economising their energies and controlling their powers in order to avoid prematurely exhaust- ing the capacity to act and enjoy in later life. In a contemporary high performance culture, to draw a line somewhere, stop work and cut off communication at some point—to reserve a part of your life for taking care of yourself—has indeed become a radical thing to do because it effectively means you are taking yourself out of circulation. You deliber- ately hold back resources, free time and potentials that could be used productively. Still, you can never be sure whether the free time you gain is not just the time you need to restore your energies to be fit to perform again on the next day so that you never escape the cycle of compulsive productivity. As such, the care of the self—wellness and health—is one of the hottest commodities available today. Madonna sarcastically comments on this in “American Life” (2003): “I do yoga and Pilates / And the room is full of hotties / So I’m check- ing out the bodies / And you know I’m satisfied.” Taking care of your health from this perspec- tice could also be understood as a measure to protect your most valuable asset by conserving your physical power to perform. The Politics of Exhaustion Directed against this conservative moment, the politics of exhaustion inherent in counter- cultural rites of excess have always been about deliberately squandering that capital. This philosophy of self-destruction is born out of the realisation that the accumulation of capital is tied to the moment when profits are skimmed off and stashed away in the bourgeois private sphere to secure property. The rebellious response of bohemian culture has therefore always lain in the commitment to never accu- mulate profit but always waste it and get wasted, to consume and be consumed, and refuse to save anything or be saved by anyone. Most beautifully maybe, this spirit is expressed in the so-called “devil’s verse,” the anonymous Latin palindrome in girum imus nocte et consumimur igni (“we wander around in the night in circles and get consumed by fire,” originally a riddle alluding to moths or mayflies). Guy Debord used it as the title for a film he made in 1978 and Cerith Wyn Evans turned it into a neon sign in which the letters of the palindrome were arrayed in the form of a ring which is suspended from the ceiling like a candelabra designed to illuminate a celebratory space for a potential congregation of the wasteful. A nagging doubt of course remains as to whether this politics of exhaustion is not merely adding a little more fizz to the spectacle of cultural consumption— and whether the insou- ciant consumers and collectors of art are not just all too eager to see another bohemian go up in a blaze of glory, be pleasantly entertained and in time move on to applaud the next eclipse. Still, there is a beauty and dignity in gestures of expenditure that, I believe, will always exceed the petty rationale of the lucratively spectacu- lar. This is because the deliberate exhibition of exhaustion in art or writing deprivatises exhaus- tion by exposing it as an experience that may be shared. The exhibition of exhaustion produces public bodies. In this sense, Vito Acconci told me in conversation that among the Marxist beliefs he had espoused in the 1970s but still felt compelled by was the conviction that the rejection of the value of private property should begin with a changed attitude to your own body, with the radical readiness to understand this body and self as public and political, 24/7. The refusal to claim your potentials as private property and the will to allow them to be exhausted by others implies a generosity that has little to do with moral altruism. It seems rather more driven by an unrestrained desire to enjoy and be enjoyed by others. Bill Withers probably best expressed this in his R&B classic “Use Me” (1972) “I wanna spread the news that if it feels this good getting used / Oh you just keep on using me until you use me up.” creatively and on demand to solve. One conse- quence is that an uncanny feeling of outside determination and dependency might never leave you, even if you are positively sure that you only do what you want to do. Here again, to push yourself beyond the point of exhaustion is a common technique to relieve yourself of the burden of outside expectations; you simply incapacitate yourself to a degree that no-one can possibly still expect anything of you. The Dead Kennedys summed it all up in “Too Drunk to Fuck” (1981): “But now I am jaded / You’re out of luck / I’m rolling down the stairs / Too drunk to fuck.” 109 politics when operative communities are forged through the forceful renewal of the promise of an exhausted myth. The erotic force of this desire to be exhausted in turn points to the sexual dimen- sion of a high performance culture. Sex work is one of the fastest growing industries today. And, without wanting to turn “sex work” into a loose metaphor, I still feel that the uncon- ditional readiness to perform whenever and wherever that is expected from freelancers as well as from artists and intellectuals opera- ting in a project-based arts economy somewhat resembles the pressure put on the sex worker to always get it on. Yet, even though this pressure can never be disconnected from the potential to perform, it should also not be confounded with it. For there is undeniably a genuine joy in recognising one’s own potentials in the act of realising them. There is a beautiful drawing by Frances Stark which shows the outlines of a peacock in a perky pose, but its tail feathers are not yet unfolded. Among the collage of different small cut-outs of texts that the feather texture is composed of, a Henry Miller quote written backwards in capital letters reads: “GET ON THE FUCKING BLOCK AND FUCK.” The words read equally like a firm admonition (Do it!), a declaration of will (Yes, I will do it!) and a supportive cheer (Come on, you can do it!). As you can also tell by its pose, this bird both wants and needs to get up and go. This inextricable ambivalence between what you want and expect of yourself and what others want and expect from you is probably one of the hardest puzzles for anyone who works both Beyond Exhaustion What potentialities open up when we reach a state beyond exhaustion? In conversation, Nasrin Tabatabai and Babak Afrassiabi pointed out that a state beyond exhaustion is precisely the condition that asylum seekers find them- selves in when, having made their trouble- some passage out of their own country into the foreign one, they are forced to realise that they have effectively exhausted all their options for further action. While the legal proceedings concerning the request for asylum are under- way you are not only prohibited from doing any work, but there is also no way that you can do anything about the outcome of your lawsuit. To be condemned to inaction in a situation where you may still be full of energy and hope is a terrible way to face the exhaustion of your options to perform. Still, a potential for agency exists beyond this point of exhaustion, as Nasrin Tabatabai shows in her documentary video Passage (2005). Over the period of a year, Tabatabai visited a middle-aged Iranian woman who spends her days in the foyer of a shopping mall handing out free newspapers and speaking to passers-by as she does so. In the course of the film it gradually transpires that she might not have an official permit to stay in the country, but that she cannot return to Iran either because of the husband she has left. This complete impasse, however, does not stop her from acting. In fact, it turns out that through speaking to people in the foyer she has created a situation where a lot of these passers-by share stories of their daily chores with her. While you would assume that the precarious situation she is in would destine her to be in need of care, she reverses the situation by caring for others. Her performance continu- ously alternates between exhaustion and exuberance. In moments when she takes a cigarette break her exhaustion is highly tangi- ble, yet in moments when she is up again and talking to people, her exuberance seems uncon- ditional: she performs without any mandate and upon no request but with an unassailable legitimacy created through the fact that she cares. Like the workers in Lloyd’s Car Wash, she transforms the non-space of the foyer into a platform for her free agency. Continuing the conversation, Babak Afrassiabi drew attention to the dialectical relation between exhaustion and revolution that throughout modernity has determined the political climate in countries which experience upheavals of their social structure. While the exhaustion of the credibility of the old social order is the legitimation that revolutionaries draw from to justify the necessity of radical change, it is conversely also the regimes of the revolutionaries that plunge into crisis at the very moment their discourse exhausts itself and the promises they make begin to ring hollow. Afrassiabi argued that in post-revolu- tionary countries like Iran you could therefore analyse the development of politics over the decades following the revolution as a cycle in which the inherent promise of revolutionary rhetoric is gradually eroded through routine repetition until, at the point of its exhaustion, the discourse of the revolution is seized again by a new herald of change who promises to rejuvenate its meaning. It seems that this logic may also apply to the foundational moments in the history of modernity and contemporary The interruption of this vicious cycle would then mean to suspend it at the point of exhaustion, before it recharges itself with meaning. It is this gesture of interruption and suspense that Deimantas Narkevicius performs in his films. In Energy Lithuania (2000), for instance, he portrays the situation in the Lithuanian city of Elektrénai, a city that was built in 1962 around a major electric power station. When Lithuania regained its indepen- dence in the 1990s, the station more or less lost the function it fulfilled within the larger econ- omy of the Soviet Union, depriving the city of its raison d’être. As Narkevicius documents, the station and city exist in peculiar state of latency, neither fully operative nor entirely shut down. Two central sequences in the film capture the latencies inherent in this moment of temporary exhaustion concisely and provocatively. In one shot the camera follows a worker who, as he walks past enormous machinery in the power station, produces a discourse on the history of the station and the heroic events through which it came into being. His speech is passionate, yet the effortlessness of its delivery also betrays the routine way in which it must have been presented many times. Surprisingly, however, the irony implied by the fact that the subject of the heroic discourse of labour has more or less ceased to exist and that the speech is recited over the backdrop of shut-down machinery, does not fully invali- date it. On the contrary, the words continue to resonate with the memory of the promise of a better future as well as with the memory of the work of the people who tried to realise it. These memories cling to the words like a shadow that gives them depth despite their emptiness. These echoes are further amplified in the following sequence in which Narkevicius films a colourful modernist mural that portrays the heroic deeds of the workers in the manner of a biblical struggle. The camera travels across the image with a very slow, careful panning shot, while a Mozart piano concert plays on the soundtrack. In itself, the image looks as exhausted as the words sounded before, yet the combination of the patient gaze of the camera and flow of the music again produce echoes of the experience of those who may have invested belief in the promise of this image as they built the city. As the film simultaneously reveals both the exhaustion of the words and icons of socialism, and their residual promise, it effec- tively redeems their memory. Yet by decidedly refraining from rejuvenating their meaning, it does so without restoring their founding ideology. They are exposed in their exhaustion, yet in this state their hollow forms begin to reverberate with the memories of lived experi- ence. Consequently, the economy of the cyclical re-interpretation of revolutionary rhetoric is interrupted by an empty moment of full awareness. It is maybe in precisely such empty moments of full awarenes that the potential of a state beyond exhaustion manifests itself. In the discourse of modernism this heightened state of awareness in a moment beyond exhaustion has a name. Edgar Allen Poe described it as the state of convalescence: Not long ago, about the closing in of an evening in autumn, I sat at the large bow window of the D–––– Coffee House in London. For some months I had been ill in health, but was now convalescent, and, with returning strength, found myself in one of those happy moods which are so precisely the converse of ennui—moods of the keenest appetency, when the film from the mental vision departs, and the intellect, electrified, surpasses as greatly its everyday condition, as does the vivid yet candid reason of Leibnitz, the mad and flimsy rhetoric of Gorgias. Merely to breathe was enjoyment; and I derived positive pleasure even from many of the legitimate sources of pain. I felt a calm but inquisitive interest in every thing. With a cigar in my mouth and a newspaper in my lap, I had been amusing myself for the greater part of the afternoon, now in poring over advertisements, now in observing the promiscuous company in the room, and now in peering through the smoky panes into the street.13 As as state of suspension between exhaustion and activity, between the I Can’t and the I Can, the state of convalescence is the epitome of an empty moment of full awareness. In this moment the illusion of potency, interrupted through illness, is not yet restored (there is no way that you can go back to work in this state) but still the sense of appreciation is redeemed as the I Care returns in its full potential: You begin to care about life again, more than ever. Could we imagine this state of convales- cence as a shared condition of experience, or rather a condition shared through art and thinking? If, living under the pressure to perform, we begin to see that a state of exhaus- tion is a horizon of collective experience, could we then understand this experience as the point of departure for the formation of a particular form of solidarity? A solidarity that would not lay the foundations for the assertion of a potent operative community, but which would, on the contrary, lead us to acknowledge that the one thing we share— exhaustion—makes us an inoperative commu- nity, an exhausted community, or a community of the exhausted. A community, however, that can still act, not because it is entitled to do so by the institutions of power, but by virtue of an unconditional, exuberant politics of dedication. In short, because, as a community of convalescents, we realise in an empty moment of full awareness, that we care. Title lettering on p. 89 by Will Holder. 110 111 NOTES 1. I wish to thank the community of people who assembled during the production of the issue of Dot Dot Dot 15 at the Centre d’Art Contemporain Genève: Stuart Bailey, Will Holder, David Reinfurt, Anthony Huberman, Walead Beshty, Polona Kuzman, Joyce Guley and Jan Dirk de Wilde, all of whose criticism has been invaluable for writing and revising this essay. 2. On the Deutsche Bank webpage, the company’s mission statement reads: “We are a European powerhouse dedicated to excellence, constantly challenging the status quo to deliver superior solutions to our demanding clients. That’s why to us A Passion to Perform is far more than just a claim—it is the way we do business.” 3. From: Joanne Reid and Victoria Hubbell, “Creating a Performance Culture” in Ivey Business Journal Online (London, Ontario: The University of Western Ontario, March /April 2005) http://www. iveybusinessjournal.com 4. This line, which is also the title of the exhibition Sheffield 08, was suggested by Tim Etchells. 5. Even Kirkegaard himself cannot be trusted on this point. In his boundless irony he voiced this view (that only the rigorous choice between either/or qualified as a true choice) solely through fictional persona he invented in his writing, none of whom can be unambiguously identified as expressing his own convictions. 6. Quoted in: Georg Schöllhammer, “Engagement instead of Arrangement” in Július Koller, Univerzálne Futurologické Operácie, Cologne Kunstverein exhibition catalogue (Cologne: tranzit Verlag der Buchhandlung Walter König, 2003) p. 126. 7. I am indebted here to Robert Linsley for having hosted a residency in Toronto earlier this year, which afforded me time to think about the politics of abstraction and immanent agency of painting. 8. Giorgio Agamben: “On Potentiality” in Giorgio Agamben, Potentialities, (Stanford, CA: Stanford University Press 1999) pp.177–184 9. Irit Rogoff, “Academy as Potentiality”, in A.C.A.D.E.M.Y. (Frankfurt: Revolver, 2006) pp. 13–20. 10. Agamben, op. cit., p.177. 11. From a talk held on 14 September 2006 in a symposium organised by Irit Rogoff for the exhibition A.C.A.D.E.M.Y. at the Museum van Hedendaagse Kunst in Antwerp. 12. In writing this section I have drawn heavily on inspiring studio conversations with Ruth Legg, Eveline van den Berg and Ruth Buchanan. 13. From: Edgar Allan Poe, “The Man of The Crowd”, first published in 1840 in Burton’s Gentleman’s Magazine and simultaneously in The Casket, then variously republished in slightly revised form, in numerous subsequent Poe collections. The passage cited is taken from the second paragraph of the story. I am hugely indebted to Robert Linsley for quoting this passage to me. 112 Reflection for Readying Vinyl paint, collage on panel, 91.4 � 157.5 cm (Frances Stark, 2005)
EXHAUSTION & EXUBERANCE Ways to Defy the Pressure to Perform by Jan Verwoert The Pressure to Perform How can we address the current changes in our societies and lives? Some say that we have come to inhabit the post-industrial condition —but what does that mean? One thing seems certain: after the disappearance of manual labour from the lives of most people in the Western world, we have entered into a culture where we no longer just work, we perform. We need to perform because that is what’s asked of us. When we choose to make our living on the basis of doing what we want, we are required to get our act together and get things done, in any place, at any time. Are you ready? I ask you and I’m sure that you’re as ready as you’ll ever be to perform, prove yourself, do things and go places. Who is we? The group is ever-expanding. It is we, the creative types—who invent jobs for ourselves by exploring and exploiting our talents to perform small artistic and intellectual miracles on a daily basis. It is we, the socially engaged—who create communal spaces for others and ourselves by performing as instigators or facilitators of social exchange. When we perform, we generate communication and thereby build forms of communality.1 When we perform, we develop ideas and thereby provide the content for an economy based on the circulation of a new currency: information. In doing so, we produce the social and intellectual capital that service societies thrive on today, in the so-called Information Age. Accordingly, the Deutsche Bank sums up their corporate philosophy with the slogan A Passion to Perform. (The motto is symptomati- cally agrammatical: in English, someone can be said to have a passion for something or someone, but not a passion to.)2 Management consultants confirm that “implementing, promoting and sustaining a high performance culture” is the key to increasing corporate productivity by eliciting individual commitment and competitiveness among employees.3 So which side of the barricades are we on? Where do they stand today anyway? When do we commit to perform of our own free will? And when is our commitment elicited under false pretenses to enforce the ideology of high performance and boost someone else’s profits? How can we tell the difference? And who is there to blame, if we choose to exploit ourselves? In a high performance culture, we are the avant-garde but we are also the job-slaves. We serve the customers who consume the communication and sociability that we produce. We work in the call centers and in the kitchens of recently opened restaurants in the burgeon- ing new urban hubs of the global service society. To provide our services we are willing to travel, so we go west to perform, we go north to perform. We are everywhere, fixing the minds, houses and cars of local customers wherever we end up staying because there is work avail- able—and for as long as it’s available. Living this life of high performance we are constantly facing two questions: “Are we (still) in charge?” and: “Are we (still) happy?” They are the ques- tions of agency and the good life, and both are implied in the first question of political ethics: “How can we know what would be the right thing to do to make a better life possible for ourselves and others, now and in the future?” Every time this question arises, it leaves us craving for an overall solution, a resolute stance, a set of unassailable principles or a foundational politics that would provide us with unambiguous criteria for determining the right thing to do in each and every future 91 situation. The trouble is that just as the question only arises in situations when a specific decision is needed, it is precisely the specificity of each new situation that seems to pre-empt the very possibility of ever devising a general morale or politics that would apply to all instances. The requests, invitations or opportunities to perform tend to be connected to a set of highly particular conditions that make some instances acceptable and others impossible. Under certain circumstances a yes and a no may even seem equally justified. Moreover, the conditions under which you will perform may turn out to be completely contingent on the way in which you (re)negotiate those conditions in the process of your performance. So beyond the yes or no, beyond the either/or, there seem to be a million other options. Maybe the secret of autonomous agency and the good life lies precisely in open- ing up the space of those other options through a categorical refusal to accept the forceful imposition of any terms, leaving us no choice but to choose between either yes or no? Yes No and Other Options 4 Kirkegaard proposed the view that only he who faced up to the full challenge of the either/or, and based his life on a rigorous and binding choice, truly chose to choose (and thus acted ethically). Anyone who deflected this choice refrained from choosing at all and merely dabbled in the boundless sphere of inconsequential possibilities (the sphere of the aesthetic). Whether this view is still justified seems doubtful.5 The experience of the dictatorial regimes of modernity has attuned us to the fact that the imposition of binding choices is precisely how the power of ideology manifests itself in the pressure of social control. When a nation goes to war, for instance, the leader will confront you with a binding either/or choice: “You’re either with us or against us.” All other ways to position yourself are over- ruled by the forceful assertion of a single set of options to choose from: Friend or Foe. Consumer society conversely proclaims to be founded on the principle of limitless choice, most vividly epitomised by Microsoft’s iconic slogan Where do you want to go today? (It was used from 1994 to 2002, since replaced by Your Potential. Our Passion.) In adopting this motto, the company promised that their product came with unlimited choice options built-in and could thus serve as a universally applicable perfor- mance tool for whatever personal purpose. The irony of this promise lies in the fact that the system on which computing machines operate is a binary logic of zeros and ones. In other words, it is a system based on the constant repetition of either/or choices. This irony becomes tangible the moment you realise that the generous offer to go wherever you want effectively entitles you only to select a predefined option from the menu of a computer program. This moment of realisation may very well exemplify the way in which we encounter the ideological regime of our high performance consumer culture and service society. We encounter it in a moment of suspicion (if not paranoia) when we dimly sense that our willingness to perform might be elicited under a false premise of opening up limitless possibilities—which is, in fact, merely pressure to enact predefined options and thereby enforce the system of control that defines them. Returning to the question of political ethics (“How can we know what is to be done to make a better life possible for ourselves and others, now and in the future?”) we then face a two-fold challenge: 1. to understand the conditions of our agency in order to enable us to define them according to our own terms; and 2. to imagine another logic of agency, an ethos, which could help us defy the social pressure to perform and eschew the promise of the regimented options of consumption. If we perceive the pressure to perform to be innately linked to the regi- mentation of options, to imagine the ethos of a resistant practice implies an exploration of the conditions, situations and potentialites that lie beyond the option menus and the exclusivity of the yes and no. In artistic practice this dedication to imagining other ways to perform and other ways to enjoy consumption means claiming the imagination and the aesthetic experience as a field of collective agency where workable forms of resistance can be devised. I Can’t But what would it mean to put up resistance against a social order in which high perfor- mance has become a growing demand, if not a norm? What would it mean to resist the need to perform? Is “resistance” even a useful concept to evoke in this context? Are the forms of agency that we commonly associate with resistance not modes of high performance themselves? Grand gestures of revolt tend to be overpoweringly assertive. They thrive on the rush of the moment when things really start happening (the crowd surges forwards, the water cannons start shooting). In this sense they actually exemplify the core momentum realise that, yes, he does have time for this —an entire lifetime dedicated to the project of stopping people like you from having their way? This slow man may turn out to be a guardian of the social equilibrium, protecting peace and sanity by preventing insanely restless perform- ers like you from changing things for the worse. Or he may merely represent an older system of control and alienation—the bureaucratic apparatus—that is increasingly coming into conflict with its successor, the regime of high performance. In any case the question remains: Can we learn something from the traditional know-how of casual uncooperativeness when we seek to put up defenses against a culture of compulsive high performance? Punk was exactly about this: the unwilling- ness to submit to industry standards of what music can or can’t be and how professional musicians should deal with what they can or can’t do. This resulted in the transgression of personal capacities by rigorously embracing personal incapacities, rising above demand by frustrating all expectations. In this respect, Stuart Bailey pointed out the iconic status that the closing moment of the Sex Pistols’ final performance: In the video recording of the show, the band are visibly drained of energy as their last song “No Fun” drags on into an endless coda, and their wild posturing routine terminally exhausts itself. As the performance disintegrates completely and ends, singer Johnny Rotten, visibly alienated by both the band and the whole situation, sneers at the audience: “Ever get the feeling you’ve been cheated?” At the point of exhaustion, the performance of the I Can’t interrupts the economy of expectations and throws its workings into relief, producing an empty moment of full awareness. Could we imagine a form of agency that consists in producing an ongoing series of such moments of interruption and awareness? Since the mid-1960s the art practice of Slovakian artist Július Koller has been precisely that:a series of small interruptive acts performed in public and private space, provoking situations in which the potential for difference becomes tangible. In his 1965 Anti-Happening mani- festo, Koller stated that, as a means of artistic practice, the Happening was an insufficient gesture because it was merely another “way to put an artistic act into action.” His concept of the Anti-Happening suggested an alternative use of “[the] means of textual designation” and “cultural demarcation” to effect a “cultural reshaping of the subject (and) an awareness of the surroundings.”6 Koller’s Anti-Happenings consequently consisted, for instance, in graffiti- ing a question mark or an endless wave onto a street wall with whipped cream, or in staging a table tennis match in a gallery as a social model of direct intersubjective exchange. The photo of the Anti-Happening Casopriestorové vymedzenie psychofyzickej cinnosti matérie (1968), for instance, shows him in the act of redrawing the tramlines of a tennis court with a chalk-dispensing cart. The title translates as “Time/Space Definition of the Psycho-physi- cal Activity of Matter“ and thus designates this act as work—in the most basic sense of its defi- nition in physics as the activity of displacing matter in space. Work, or artistic labour, is then defined by the simple gesture of drawing a line (or marking a difference) that designates the space as a site for a possible encounter between two people as players with equal rights in the game. It is an operation on the margins whilst staking a claim on those same margins. Koller continued to perform such Anti- Happenings with an attitude of casual insis- tence, but from a position quite literally on the margins of a society. Due to the political regime in power, the art he was practising was practically barred from public recognition. Yet Koller’s insistence on the possibility of making art on his own terms turned his work from a marginal practice into a practice of performing the margins; a performance of demarcating the limits of the existing society by pointing beyond them towards other possibilities. The photo Monologika—Jojo (U.F.O.) [Monologic— Yo-Yo] (1982), for instance, depicts him playing with a big white Yo-Yo in front of a group of mind-numbingly dull apartment blocks. The cipher “U.F.O.” in the title is a key to Koller’s work, as a central part of his practice consisted of finding ever-new permutations of the acronym. In diagram drawings it came to stand for Univerzálna Futurologická Organizácia [Universal Futurological Organi-sation] (1972–3), Univerzálny Filozoficky Ornament [Universal Philosophical Ornament] (1978) or Underground Fantastic Organisation (1975), to name a few. Collectively, the potentially infinite variations on the cipher “U.F.O.” form a continu- ous cheeky incantation of the Utopian principle. By representing the possibility of other possi- bilities, they point to all other options outside of high performance itself: they make something happen and deliver an event. Should we then not rather look for other, more subtle ways of performing dissent? What silent but effective forms of non-alignment, non-compliance, uncooperativeness, reluctance, reticence, weariness or unwillingness do we find in every- day life? There are, for instance, those covert survival tactics of the workplace accumulated by generations of employees devising ever-new schemes to avoid performing the task they’re asked to perform in the way (or at the time and speed at which) they are required to do so. Can we embrace such forms of anti-performance in art and thinking as forms of art and thinking? Or do we inevitably find ourselves in the same position as the high performers who are enraged by slow people standing in their way? Uncooperativeness may well be the revenge that uncreative people take on creative society by wilfully stopping it in its tracks. Have you ever found yourself screaming or wanting to scream at an uncooperative clerk behind a counter: “I haven’t got time for this!” only to Why does it take other people to stop us from performing in the first place? Why do we not dismiss the need to perform of our own accord? What can make us utter the magic words I Can’t? Does it take a breakdown to stop us? Does the utterance of the words I Can’t already constitute or confirm a breakdown, a failure to perform, justifiable only if our body authenticates our incapacity by refusing to function? How could we restore dignity to the I Can’t? How could we avoid becoming backed into a corner where the I Can’t would merely be perceived as a passive-aggressive stance of denial? In other words: How can we embrace the I Can’t without depriving ourselves of our potential to act? Could we unlock the I Can’t as a form of agency? Reportedly, Gerhard Richter used to have a poster next to his phone with one single word printed on it in big letters: NO. As compelling as this may seem, the categorical no in this case only functions as (because it is) a response to an existing demand—and therefore a move within a stable economy that supports or even rewards it (rarified supply enhances the demand and raises the price). So the question is rather how performing the I Can’t could effectively interrupt the self-contained economic cycle of supply and demand and truly break the spell of the pressure to produce for the sake of production. of the given regime of options imposed on social The Beauty of Latency coquettish flirtation with opacity) but because it can’t. If it could, it would lose its capacity to address the potential reality of all that is presently not given in actuality (i.e. all the possibilities that lie beyond those already actualised within the dominant mode of think- ing and acting.) make you aware of the fact that these forms are the outcome of a long painterly process of continuous revision and overpainting in which nothing is fixed or decided at the painting’s conception. Still, this painterly process does not assert itself as a dramatic form of agency. It defies the melodrama of process that abstract expressionism performed. It is only through paint nooks, uneven edges, strange overlaps of shapes or surprising symmetries between askewed axes that the decisions made in every stage of the work’s execution become tangible in their latent presence. Beyond the grand gesture, Abts thereby proposes a very particular model of agency: a model of how time can be spent making decisions in relation to what you want something to be. A crucial question in painting (as in writ- ing) is how to start and where to end. In a high performance culture, the beginning and end of each given task is defined with brutal clarity. All parameters are set by an outside demand, and the job must be performed as fast as possible to meet the impending deadline. On the contrary, in painting (as in writing) the begin- ning and end of the work are defined through an immanent demand, as the decisions about how to start and conclude are choices that shape the very identity of a piece. It is only by concluding in a particular way, that the piece establishes its own standards of completion and demonstrates why it had to be the way it is. Work that incorpo- rates the memory of its own process in this way constitutes its own parameters of time both in- and outside of itself. This is a time that stretches into long days and nights of pushing towards something, only to collapse into split-seconds of sudden discoveries; a time that can retroactively change its face as it re-invents its own beginning at the end. Through its immanent temporal- ity such work is structurally at odds with any regimented notion of time. It interrupts the homogeneous pace of high performance culture through the immanent rhythm of expanded and compressed, delayed and accelerated time of the memory at work in the process of its making. life by the dominant system of governance. The various interpretations of the acronym perform the utopian principle: first of all because the infinite play on the name realises the potentials of the imagination as a radical form of free agency; secondly, because the performance of infinite renaming operates on the dialectic of affirmation and deferral that is crucial to utopian thought. Utopian thought portrays a different world as presently not yet existing but realistically within reach. In this sense, Mark E. Smith’s ingenious mantra “I can’t get it now but I can get it” (from the Von Südenfed track “Fledermaus Can’t Get It”, 2007) is a shorthand formula for the way in which the utopian drive suspends the opposition between the I Can’t and the I Can, allowing each one to embody the realisation of the other. Nietzsche argued that to realise a fundamen- tal critique of bad faith means to move beyond cynicism and embrace a radical optimism that exceeds the petty dialectics of expectation and disappointment. (Invoking such an attitude of defiant optimism, I feel indebted to Paulina Olowska for pointing out the key role this spirit played in the art and pop culture that contin- ued heroic modernism after the Second World War.) Koller’s art epitomises this optimism, as it demonstrates the potentiality of what I propose to call an existential exuberance, i.e., a way to perform without any mandate or legitimation, in response to the desires and dreams of other people, but without the aim or pretense of merely fulfilling an existing demand. It is a way of always giving too much of what is not pres- ently requested. It is a way of giving what you do not have to others who may not want it. It is a way of transcending your capacities by embracing your incapacities and therefore a way to interrupt the brute assertiveness of the I Can through the performance of an I Can’t performed in the key of the I Can. It is a way of insisting that, even if we can’t get it now, we can get it, in some other way at some other point in time. Another mode of performing the I Can’t in the key of the I Can that art and poetry have always used to great effect is to create moments in which meaning remains provocatively latent. To embrace latency goes against the grain of the logic of high performance. The appraisal of latency restores dignity to the unsaid, the unshown, and everything that can’t be dragged out into the open in the rush of high performance when the value of all our potentials appears to depend entirely on our capacity to actualise them right here, right now. The fatal consequence of a continuous pressure to perform is the exhaustion of all our potentials precisely because the current social order denies the value of latency, the value of a poten- tiality that remains presently unactualised and quite possibly can’t ever be exhaustively actualised. It seems that we have to learn to re-experience the value and beauty of latency. Again the I Can’t implied in the unwilling- ness to fully spell out the meaning of something that cannot be forced into the open (an idea, a feeling, a motive etc.) must not be under- stood as a denial of agency. On the contrary, the insistence to speak—or make work in any other way—about that which is neither readily understandable nor immediately useful is in itself a strong claim to agency: I Can speak or make work about what I Can’t speak or make work about. While this in a more general sense applies to any form of art or writing, it may have a special bearing on abstract work.6 The provocation of abstraction in thinking as much as in painting or sculpture, for instance, lies precisely in this insistence on addressing and not addressing its subject in the very same instant. The capacity of abstract thought and work to invoke ideas in the most concise way is intrinsically linked to the impossibility of its exhaustive verification through positive facts. Whereby abstract thought and work insists on the latency of meaning not because it won’t disclose its immediate meaning (i.e. out of a It may be that some of the oldest forms of creative manual labour, such as painting or writing, further the cultivation of a particularly intimate relationship to latent meanings. As you write or paint, words you have read or images you have seen elsewhere (including those which you have forgotten you read or saw) are pres- ent in your work as latent memories. The same latencies are at play in the moment of reading or looking at a painting as the words of the pages you have read before reverberate in the words you presently read and the images you have been exposed to resonate with what you see when you look at what you presently face. Explicating these latencies by forcing them out onto the page or canvas in their brute actual- ity would mean to obliterate the deep space of memory that the immanent echoes and delays of the medium generate. How can the potential of these latencies be activated? How do you open up the space of echo and delay? In her abstract paintings, Esther Stocker, for instance, does this by projecting several graphic grid structures on top of one another. The structures then echo and displace each other through the delay that occurs in your visual perception when you try and fail to read them as one coherent pattern and the structures begin to waver. This is the experience of the latency at the heart of any structure, the latent grids that quiver through the visible ones just like latent thoughts make words tremble on the page. In Tomma Abts’s abstract paintings this latency resides in the texture of their surface. At first glance, the shapes of the abstract figures and constellations in her work seem so clearly defined that you would assume they had been painted in one shot. Nooks of paint around the edges of each form then, however, OT Acrylic on cotton, 140 � 160 cm (Esther Stocker, 2007) Time/space Definition of the Psychophysical Activity of Matter 1, 2 (Anti-Happening) (Július Koller, 1968) Just in Time Performance is all about timing. A comedian with a bad sense of timing is not funny, a musi- cian useless. Career opportunities, we are told, are all about being in the right place at the right time, and so, perhaps, is finding a lover. Is there a right time for love? These days, over- worked couples are advised to reserve “quality time” for one another to prevent their relation- ship from losing its substance. What is quality time? “Is it a good time for you to talk?” people will ask when they reach you on your mobile. When is a good time to talk? We live and work in economies based on the concept of “just-in- time” production—and “just-in-time” usually means things have to be ready in no time at all. Who sets the urgent pace according to which all others are measuring their progress? Or rather: Who sets the pace of planned obsolescence that keeps people buying the same product in slightly upgraded designs over and over again, allowing industry to thrive on the constant over-production of what will essentially be tomorrow’s waste? This is the question Dexter Sinister (publisher of this essay) is asking and attempting to answer by seeking not only alternative modes of production, but also other means—or ecologies—of circulation. For instance, re-publication is offered as a form to keep thoughts in the loop, beyond the date of their planned obsolescence. The timing of just-in-time production, moreover, seems to be the defining force at the heart of the pressure to perform. To be in sync with just-in-time production essentially means that you have to be ready to perform all the time and at all times. Are you ready? is the ques- tion you must be prepared to answer positively: As ready as I’ll ever be. A whole etiology of high performance culture could be based on studying the current use of this term. “Are you ready?” asks smooth operator Danny Ocean (George Clooney) in the block- buster Ocean’s 13 (2007), to which self-styled gentleman criminal Terry Benedict (Andy potentials of an anti-oedipal interpretation of the I Can. Through deflecting the demands of the dominant reality principle, the I Can, performed in the key of the anti-oedipal, may effectively create a different (and no less factual) reality in which the unrequested exuberance of desire—rather than demand or discipline—determines what is real. this period in its “actual” length as two long weeks. An apparent gap of thirteen days thus opens up between the two economies of time. What happened to this time? The space of circulation absorbed it. Such time-lags can cause even the most intimate long-term relationships to fall apart. As progressively more people can, want or have to circulate to keep up with the pace of high performance, just as many people cannot or do not want to circulate. One of the most existential questions we thus face concerns the possibility of convivi- ality and communiality under the conditions of a division of time through spatial distance: How do we want to share time together, when work divides time in previously unknown geographical dimensions? How can we try to bridge these differences in time—the time-lags created by circulation—which question the very possibility of intimate relationships? Roman Ondák has proposed a whole series of ways to potentially share the experience of circulation; that is, to share precisely that experience of the insurmountable difference in time and space that disrupts the horizon of shared experience. One form this takes is through the use of invitations to participate in international exhibitions as an occasion to cultivate his correspondence with the people he lives with. In Antinomads (2000) for instance, Ondák asked friends and family members in his hometown of Bratislava whether they consi- dered themselves to be nomads or antinomads. He then photographed those who identified themselves as antinomads in a location of their choice, e.g. in front of their bookshelves, at their own desk, in the garden or on their bed surrounded by cuddly toys. Each picture was made into a set of postcards, and these postcards were then distributed freely in the locations where the work was later exhibited. Through this work Ondák thus performs a symbolic exchange: the antinomads give their picture to the nomadic artist and he, in return, sends them on a journey by allowing their pictures to circulate in other places. Garcia) promptly replies: “I was born ready.” Subsequently Clooney, Garcia and a cast of selected Hollywood high performers rise up to the challenge summed up in the movie’s pitch: “What does it take to steal 500 million in three point five minutes?” Even in its ostentatious self-irony the movie essentially glorifies what Jean-Luc Nancy calls an operative community: a mythic bond of male heroes who come together to complete a task. In the film, the heroes team up to revenge their godfather by driving his enemy, a Las Vegas casino developer, to ruin. They acquire all kinds of equipment and exper- tise and burn enormous amounts of money. They do all it takes to get the job done and succeed, and yet their success somehow smacks of fatal- ism. What else would we expect a Hollywood high performer to do, but to satisfy and deliver? Even in the mode of self-irony, he can’t perform the I Can’t; as a prototypical man of action, he remains chained to an inviolate I Can. In a much more subversive form the celebration of the I Can implied in the continous unconditional readiness to perform is inter- preted by the eponymous hero of the children’s cartoon programme Spongebob Squarepants. Spongebob, a tiny yellow sea sponge who lives in the submarine smalltown of Bikini Bottom, loves to unreservedly greet any new morning by exuberantly chanting: “I’m ready! I’m ready! I’m ready-eady-eady-eady-eady!” He then usually spends his day working in a dingy fast food joint, the Krusty Krab, where his remark- able talents at frying patties are shamelessly exploited by the owner, a Scrooge-like crab. This exploitation has no impact on Spongebob, however, since frying patties happens to be one of his most favorite pastimes. He effectively lives a free and happy life because, coinci- dentally, he does what he loves to do, and as such the idea that he may have reasons to feel alienated never dawns on him. His unassail- able naiveté affords him the gift of an exuber- ance so contagious that the dire reality of his surroundings pales in the light of his optimism. Spongebob’s incredible resilience evokes the Unfortunately, even if you manage to shrug it off exuberantly, the dominant reality principle tends to find painful ways of reasserting itself. In this sense, one such painful reminder produced by the timing of high performance culture is the curent global experience of divided, alienated time. Today, time is becom- ing progressively disjointed as the “developed” countries push ahead into a science fiction economy of dematerialised labour and virtual capital—and simultaneously push the “devel- oping” countries centuries back in time by outsourcing manual and industrial labour that imposes working conditions on them from the times of early industrialisation. Sometimes this time gap doesn’t even have to span centuries —it might be only a few years, as some former Eastern European countries are currently experiencing (rapidly catching up to the speed of advanced capitalism, but perhaps still not rapidly enough). Migrant workers bridge this gap, travelling ahead in time to work in the fast cities of the West and the North, yet facing the risk of any time-traveller losing touch with the time that passes while they are away. Can you find your way back into the time zone you left when you learn to inhabit the time zone of a country that purports to be your future? How many time-zones can you inhabit and still live happily? One of the most painfully difficult aspects to grasp and live with in this respect, is that life goes on at a different pace in the place you have temporarily left behind when you travel to work. With an abundance of experience, a two-week journey may feel like a single long day. On returning, however, you may come to realise that someone who stayed at home experienced Contradicting the pressure to be mobile, Ondák restores dignity to the postion of people who defy this pressure by presenting them as heroes of anti-mobility. At the same time, however, he also draws a fine yet crucial line between this position and the reactionary resentments against a global culture that neo- conservative parties today incite and profit from. By insisting on circulating the pictures of the antinomads internationally, Ondák negoti- ates the value of their reluctance within the context of a global culture. He thereby cheek- ily frees the position of the anti-nomad from a negative proximity to a politics of isolationism, in the tradition of the vade mecum (taking along a picture of family and friends to a foreign place is an intimate gesture of love and allegiance). Symbolically at least, the rupture in the horizon of shared experience is then bridged by the fact that the traveller imparts the conditions of his existence on those who do not travel, by circulating their image. Ondák demonstrates that if we seek to break the high performance spell that threatens the possibility of intimacy through insurmountable time-lags, we must devise counter-spells and learn to perform a kind of relational voodoo whereby we invoke the ghosts of the absent others wherever we end up being, to share our life with them. The Exuberant I Can picture through this painterly form, and it is precisely this moment of abstraction that draws out the intrinsic exuberance of the formalised body language of ballet. This exuberance resides in the gesture freed from any other purpose but to communicate the idea of bodies commu- nicating. Depicted in the mode of abstraction, dance then becomes a cipher for a communality that is not organised towards an ulterior end, a task or function it has to perform on demand. In its abstract form, the exuberant community remains inoperative. Collectivity and disaggre- gation are performed by those present, coming together and falling apart in ways that are solely determined through bodily articulation. What the paintings represent, then, is a utopian state of exuberance. In her work Hilary Lloyd also focuses on the sheer exuberance of the gesture, yet she reaches this point less through abstraction and more through the specific observation of a vernacular body language. Car Wash (2005), for example, consists of four slide projections, each comprised of 80 slides. As the slides change with the pace of a very slow movie, they intensify your experience of place by unhinging your sense of time. The pictures show a group of young Arab men working at a car wash in Sheffield. Lloyd’s camera picks out numerous details of their body language. You see how the biceps of a man in a vest ripple as he lifts a hose to rinse a car, or how a gold necklace glitters between the zip of a tracksuit, opened just wide enough to reveal it. You sense that the men know how to let these things show. It’s a defiant form of exuberance, as none of the defining features of their performance is determined by the requirements of the work they do. And it is precisely through this moment of exuberance that the men erase the stigma of a low-paid job, transforming it instead into a platform for a performance in which the cars become mere props for a demonstration of pride. Here Lloyd pays tribute to the body politics of pure attitude. The men at the car wash have exactly what the fashion industry But they didn’t buy it and they don’t sell it; they just have it. Many a stylist, model or musician would give their right arm to have it, too, but it’s not for sale. As in Theorema, the acts of exuberance interrupt a labour regime in which only purposeful production counts as agency, and instead opens up a space in which the I Can exists in the form of an untradable surplus. Who Cares? But in what way do we experience the I Can when we release it from the demands of high performance and economic productivity? Giorgio Agamben argues that this experience is “for each of us, perhaps the hardest and bitterest experience possible: the experience of potentiality.”8 In one sense the horror of the I Can could be understood as the infinite challenge to truly face the reality of your desires in a state when no outside demands or prohibi- tions protect you from asking the terrifying question: Tell me what you want, what you really really want? In another sense, however, the challenge of the I Can is not simply or solely a reflection of your own desires. As Irit Rogoff points out, Agamben actually relates it to a moment of existential indebtedness to others.9 To make this point, he recounts the story in which Russian poet Anna Akhmatova describes how and why she became a writer. Standing outside a Leningrad prison in 1930 where her son was a political prisoner, a woman whose son was also imprisoned, addressed Akhmatova with the question: “Can you speak of this?” She realised that she had to respond yes— indeed she could—and in this moment found herself both indebted and empowered.10 Thinking through this link between indebtedness and empowerment may prove crucial, precisely because the thought goes against the very grain of high performance culture. Its demand to be ever-ready relies on the assumption that you could be. It is based on the illusion that each individual should be If we return now to the notion of exuberance implied in a way to perform the I Can that trans- gresses the predefined demands: Could such exuberance be a way to interrupt the order of the division of time and space imposed on social life by the culture of high performance? In his film Theorema, Pasolini draws up precisely such a scenario of unleashed performativity. The film starts with a scene in which a factory owner hands over his factory to the workers. (The film involves a temporal reversal: the beginning of the film is actually its conclusion, and the gesture that ends the working life of the factory owner is a latent decision which takes shape Could we collectively inhabit such a condi- tion of exuberant performativity? In her recent paintings Silke Otto-Knapp points towards this possibility. The works are based on her ongoing study of the forms in which modern ballet has translated patterns of social life into dance. Otto-Knapp appropriates selected moments from this history and transforms them into pictures that focus attention on the specific formalised body language through which dance reflects the relation of the individual to the collective. Many of the works are painted in monochromatic silver tones, others in lumi- nescent water-colours. Abstraction enters the 100 over the course of subsequent events.) Although it lies close to the factory, the villa of the owner is a space in which the regime of labour is suspended. Consequently, it is a space where time is undivided and endless; a time of infinite boredom; in a space that seems without struc- ture, through which members of the staff and family move about aimlessly. This comfortable situation changes when, at short notice, a young man arrives. He is devoid of personality or any other form of distinction apart from the fact that he is a charming lover. Over the course of the film he sleeps with all members of the family and leaves again. Suddenly liberated by love, all family members now start to perform: the son acknowledges his homosexuality and becomes a painter; the daughter decides to never move nor speak again; the mother cruises the streets, having casual sex with random young men; the maid refrains from killing herself and instead becomes a saint; the factory owner undresses himself in the train station and walks off into a nearby volcano. All these acts are portrayed as possessing identical value, all suddenly seem equally possible, and none of the individual “performances” negates the potential of any of the others. Pasolini thereby invokes a situation where the end of work and the arrival of love creates the potential for a radical co-existence of ways to perform the I Can and I Can’t which are not forced under the yoke of a dominant impera- tive to perform in one way and one way alone. 101 capitalises on: they have it, i.e., attitude. able to generate an inexhaustable potency solely from his own resources. This illusion is as self-aggrandising as it is fatal, because it is only through assuming you had such inexhaustable potency that you willingly accept the request to prove it, then take it to heart when you are repri- manded for failing to do so. To point out that the potential to perform is a gift and debt received from others involves shattering the illusion on which high performance culture is founded. But what does it mean to assume that we are always already deeply indebted to others when we perform? In what way is it precisely this indebt- edness to others that enables us to perform in the first place? How could we develop the ethos of a mode of performance that acknowledges the debt to the other instead of asserting the illusion of the infinite potency of the self? One way to acknowledge the debt is to pay tribute to those who have enabled you to prac- tice what you do by inspiring you. With regard to inspiration, the I Can is realised in a very partic- ular way because another person’s thoughts, works or conversation make you experience the liberating sensation of potentiality that, yes, you can also think, feel, speak and act this way. To feel inspired essentially means to realise I Can because You Do. Any form of work that unfolds through addressing the work of others (including this essay) thrives on this sensation. To put the moment of inspiration into practice and act upon the implications of the realisation that I Can because You Do involves transforming the debt to the other into a pro-active gesture of dedicating one’s practice to this other. Overcoming the fear of influence, we could then move towards a politics of dedication. The work of Frances Stark thrives on such a politics of dedication. In both her visual and written work she continuously borrows and quotes and transforms what she borrows and quotes. Yet, the gesture of appropriation in her work, as much as it always echoes an act of stealing, first of all communicates a sense of appreciation that precisely reflects the conver- sion of a debt into a dedication. The space her other voices resonate through her voice, but where her voice remains very distinctively hers. The oedipal hierarchies of godfathers and disci- ples, progenitors and epigones are effectively toppled in this continuum, where the ghosts can only speak when the one who summons them speaks too. In this space such hierarchies are dismantled and displaced by a form of commu- nality and conviviality with the ghosts of those whose presence may be felt through a work. At one point in the conceptual text piece Structures that fit my opening and other parts considered to the whole (2006), mischievously offered in the form of a Powerpoint presentation, Stark hints at the social model of communality that such a politics of appreciation implies through its anti-economical motivation. She writes that in composing a poem (dedicated, as it were, to one particular person or maybe many) she was pondering “the possibility of liberating oneself from a cycle of disengaged production motivated by a craving for legitimising praise. Paradoxically, I looked toward a mutual admira- tion society—to that ecstatic reciprocal atten- tion-paying of lovers—as an alternative model for understanding how and why intellectual equals might freely collaborate.” This could form the first paragraph for an unwritten (and maybe unwritable) constitution of a community committed to the politics of dedication. I Care To practice a politics of dedication and recog- nise an indebtedness to the other as the condi- tion of your own ability to perform means to acknowledge the importance of care. You perform because you care for someone or some- thing. This care gives you the strength to act, not least because to not act is out of the question when someone or something you really care for or about requires that you should act. In conver- sation Annika Eriksson summed this point up by describing the experience that, as a mother, (when your child is in need of you) “there is no no.” This unconditional demand forces you to realise that you can even if you thought you couldn’t. By definition, then, the I Care implies the potential of an unconditional I Can. The decisive difference between this mode of unconditional potentiality and the illusion of inexhaustable potency, however, lies in the fact that the experience of uncondi- tional care is one that comes to us both from and through the other. Paradoxically, you are freed from the economic regime of demand by virtue of a debt to the other; in other words, the existential demand will always overrule the economic one. And since it is unconditional and existential rather than economical, the I Care is equally the force behind an incommen- surable surplus of exuberance. That extra bit of time and attention we invest into our personal relations as well as our work is precisely what makes these relations and this work un-econom- ical. It’s a surplus that can never be justified by economic standards, but it’s the source of our modus operandi when we care. The I Care has radical implications because, while it can provide the sensation of an uncon- ditional I Can, it can equally radically delimit it. When you recognise the priority of care for someone or something, this commitment may, under certain circumstances, oblige you to turn down an offer or request to perform that you otherwise might have gladly accepted. In this situation to profess the I Can’t (do this job, participate in this event) is then the only adequate way to show that you care—for the friends, family, children or lovers who require your presence, or for the continuation of a long-term creative practice that takes its time. Likewise, the recognition that you are exhausting yourself and need to take care of your health can under these conditions consti- tute a reason to decline an offer to perform and utter the I Can’t. To practice a politics of dedication then means to recognise the I Care as the source both of the I Can and the I Can’t. The I Care is also, then, a question of welfare—a pertinent issue in the context of Politically speaking, this is the question of organised solidarity. Ethically speaking, however, there is a fundamental problem: when we fully realise the implications of the I Care, we are forced to acknowledge that the potential- ity of care can never be collectively organised, because the debt to the other implied in the I Care is always radically particular. To gener- alise it means to obliterate its very momentum. In conversation Gitte Villesen formulated this criticism in relation to what she marked out as the intrinsic arrogance of a social democratic idea of welfare: because it generalises care, the social reality of institutionalised solidarity and welfare results in a top-down imposition of the standards of a good life on demographi- cally-categorised population groups. Organised care, she continued, can only address its subject indifferently as “Them” (an anonymous collec- tive entity whose needs are to be administered from a distanced position, as in “Them, the immigrants, the single mothers, etc.”) and never as the “You” of a direct encounter with the need of the other. In her own practise, Villesen performs a critique of the administration of welfare by using documentary video to provoke such direct encounters in which the force of the demand placed on the artist by the other can be fully experienced. It seems the potential of such a politics of welfare may only be truly realised when it retains the moment of disor- ganisation that the particularity of care inevi- tably produces—at the very moment it becomes collective. 102 work opens up is an open continuum in which 103 the widespread dismantling of the welfare state. In a recent talk Jimmy Durham cited two people he had met in Italy as saying: “We are liber- ated. What we need now is a better life.”11 This anecdote might help us rephrase the question of political ethics, from “How can we know what is to be done to make a better life possible for ourselves and others, now and in the future?” to: “How could we collectively realise the free- dom and demands of I Can and I Can’t in the key of I Care and claim the right to create the conditions for a better life for everybody?” The Bride’s Chamber Scene Watercolour and gouache on canvas, 100 � 100 cm (Silke Otto-Knapp, 2005) Car Wash 4 � 80 slides, 4 � Kodak Ektapro 5020 slide projectors, 4 � Unicol projector stands (Hilary Lloyd, 2005) Use Me Up high performance culture endorsed by advanced captitalism. Complete exhaustion is a state we both fear and seek to reach. To one day run out of ideas and things to say is what creative people dread more than anything else. Yet, at the same time one of the strongest driving forces behind creative work continues to be the desire to push an idea to its limits, to go to extremes and only stop when all possibilities have been exhausted and, looking at the result of your efforts, you realise with pleasurable horror: this is it, this is how it must be, it could have been different, but now that the hour is late, the deadline has passed, the opening of the show or premiere of the performance is about to start, there is no way you could still change anything. Time is up and you are finally relieved from the pressure to perform.12 This build-up of conflicting emotions around the end of work— the completion of a particular work as well as the depletion of all possibilities to make further work— is at the heart of the drama by which artists and intellec- tuals in modernity have learned to experience the climax and crisis of their work as a radical form of exhaustion. It is also through this drama that avant-gardes asserted their power to bring art (as it was) to an end by terminating tradition, either to liberate following generations or to leave them with nothing more to do. This drama is far from over. On the contrary, it has become a general social condition. As the post-industrial societies of the global north are increasingly organised around flexible, imma- terial and creative labour, complete personal exhaustion in the form of the much-feared burn- out syndrome has become a collective experi- ence of professionals in all sectors of the service society and new creative industries who feel pressed to perform to the best of their talent and abilities on their job every day. Bizarrely then, the heartfelt belief that “it’s better to burn out than to fade away” that used to set the rebellious devotees of countercultural creativ- ity apart from obedient employees, now seems to have become the first commandment of the Parallel to the way in which futurist avant- gardes had demanded the museums to be burned to release art production into a state of pure presence, the economic rationale of just-in-time production lies in the realisation that the storage of goods in warehouses is too costly and has to be replaced by models of distribution where the consumer or client can access the desired service or product right away (ideally through downloading). Museums and warehouses remain as sites that retain temporal latency. But in a high performance culture there is no time for latencies; all potentials of production must be actualised right away, the faster the better. Under the economic impera- tive of high performance, just-in-time-produc- tion is boosted by the buzz and justified by the necessity of the moment because any choice taken under extreme time pressure is without alternatives. As the range of possibilities is always already exhausted when there is no time to consider other options, acts performed in the nick of time appear to be powered by the full force of necessity. Anyone working under the conditions of just-in-time production by defini- tion labours and lives in a constant state of exhaustion. But is an economy based on systematic exhaustion not bound to collapse at any time? If current forms of capitalism purposefully sustain a sense of crisis to increase the urgency of production, it does indeed seem inevitable that the whole system should soon spiral out of control. Such apocalyptic prognoses, however, have been popular ever since the 1960s, when consumer culture came to increasingly thrive on excessive overspending and thus seemed to head right towards economic meltdown. Yet, until now nothing like that has happened. So it seems more probable that overspending and exhaustion are simply moments in the cyclical patterns of capitalism’s reproduction and regeneration. As more and more people burn out the whole machine gets fired up. What would it mean to escape this vicious cycle and break the spell of the death drive towards exhaustion? One option, of course, is to start taking care of yourself. It is no coincidence that after having exhaustively analysed how people willingly submit to the systematic exploitation of their life energy, Foucault should aptly title his final book The Care of the Self. In it he portrays the practical wisdom ancient Greek and Roman culture gathered in its reflections on how to live a good life. Instead of fixed norms, Foucault writes, ancient ethics and dietics encouraged free men to find their own style of economising their energies and controlling their powers in order to avoid prematurely exhaust- ing the capacity to act and enjoy in later life. In a contemporary high performance culture, to draw a line somewhere, stop work and cut off communication at some point—to reserve a part of your life for taking care of yourself—has indeed become a radical thing to do because it effectively means you are taking yourself out of circulation. You deliber- ately hold back resources, free time and potentials that could be used productively. Still, you can never be sure whether the free time you gain is not just the time you need to restore your energies to be fit to perform again on the next day so that you never escape the cycle of compulsive productivity. As such, the care of the self—wellness and health—is one of the hottest commodities available today. Madonna sarcastically comments on this in “American Life” (2003): “I do yoga and Pilates / And the room is full of hotties / So I’m check- ing out the bodies / And you know I’m satisfied.” Taking care of your health from this perspec- tice could also be understood as a measure to protect your most valuable asset by conserving your physical power to perform. The Politics of Exhaustion Directed against this conservative moment, the politics of exhaustion inherent in counter- cultural rites of excess have always been about deliberately squandering that capital. This philosophy of self-destruction is born out of the realisation that the accumulation of capital is tied to the moment when profits are skimmed off and stashed away in the bourgeois private sphere to secure property. The rebellious response of bohemian culture has therefore always lain in the commitment to never accu- mulate profit but always waste it and get wasted, to consume and be consumed, and refuse to save anything or be saved by anyone. Most beautifully maybe, this spirit is expressed in the so-called “devil’s verse,” the anonymous Latin palindrome in girum imus nocte et consumimur igni (“we wander around in the night in circles and get consumed by fire,” originally a riddle alluding to moths or mayflies). Guy Debord used it as the title for a film he made in 1978 and Cerith Wyn Evans turned it into a neon sign in which the letters of the palindrome were arrayed in the form of a ring which is suspended from the ceiling like a candelabra designed to illuminate a celebratory space for a potential congregation of the wasteful. A nagging doubt of course remains as to whether this politics of exhaustion is not merely adding a little more fizz to the spectacle of cultural consumption— and whether the insou- ciant consumers and collectors of art are not just all too eager to see another bohemian go up in a blaze of glory, be pleasantly entertained and in time move on to applaud the next eclipse. Still, there is a beauty and dignity in gestures of expenditure that, I believe, will always exceed the petty rationale of the lucratively spectacu- lar. This is because the deliberate exhibition of exhaustion in art or writing deprivatises exhaus- tion by exposing it as an experience that may be shared. The exhibition of exhaustion produces public bodies. In this sense, Vito Acconci told me in conversation that among the Marxist beliefs he had espoused in the 1970s but still felt compelled by was the conviction that the rejection of the value of private property should begin with a changed attitude to your own body, with the radical readiness to understand this body and self as public and political, 24/7. The refusal to claim your potentials as private property and the will to allow them to be exhausted by others implies a generosity that has little to do with moral altruism. It seems rather more driven by an unrestrained desire to enjoy and be enjoyed by others. Bill Withers probably best expressed this in his R&B classic “Use Me” (1972) “I wanna spread the news that if it feels this good getting used / Oh you just keep on using me until you use me up.” creatively and on demand to solve. One conse- quence is that an uncanny feeling of outside determination and dependency might never leave you, even if you are positively sure that you only do what you want to do. Here again, to push yourself beyond the point of exhaustion is a common technique to relieve yourself of the burden of outside expectations; you simply incapacitate yourself to a degree that no-one can possibly still expect anything of you. The Dead Kennedys summed it all up in “Too Drunk to Fuck” (1981): “But now I am jaded / You’re out of luck / I’m rolling down the stairs / Too drunk to fuck.” 109 politics when operative communities are forged through the forceful renewal of the promise of an exhausted myth. The erotic force of this desire to be exhausted in turn points to the sexual dimen- sion of a high performance culture. Sex work is one of the fastest growing industries today. And, without wanting to turn “sex work” into a loose metaphor, I still feel that the uncon- ditional readiness to perform whenever and wherever that is expected from freelancers as well as from artists and intellectuals opera- ting in a project-based arts economy somewhat resembles the pressure put on the sex worker to always get it on. Yet, even though this pressure can never be disconnected from the potential to perform, it should also not be confounded with it. For there is undeniably a genuine joy in recognising one’s own potentials in the act of realising them. There is a beautiful drawing by Frances Stark which shows the outlines of a peacock in a perky pose, but its tail feathers are not yet unfolded. Among the collage of different small cut-outs of texts that the feather texture is composed of, a Henry Miller quote written backwards in capital letters reads: “GET ON THE FUCKING BLOCK AND FUCK.” The words read equally like a firm admonition (Do it!), a declaration of will (Yes, I will do it!) and a supportive cheer (Come on, you can do it!). As you can also tell by its pose, this bird both wants and needs to get up and go. This inextricable ambivalence between what you want and expect of yourself and what others want and expect from you is probably one of the hardest puzzles for anyone who works both Beyond Exhaustion What potentialities open up when we reach a state beyond exhaustion? In conversation, Nasrin Tabatabai and Babak Afrassiabi pointed out that a state beyond exhaustion is precisely the condition that asylum seekers find them- selves in when, having made their trouble- some passage out of their own country into the foreign one, they are forced to realise that they have effectively exhausted all their options for further action. While the legal proceedings concerning the request for asylum are under- way you are not only prohibited from doing any work, but there is also no way that you can do anything about the outcome of your lawsuit. To be condemned to inaction in a situation where you may still be full of energy and hope is a terrible way to face the exhaustion of your options to perform. Still, a potential for agency exists beyond this point of exhaustion, as Nasrin Tabatabai shows in her documentary video Passage (2005). Over the period of a year, Tabatabai visited a middle-aged Iranian woman who spends her days in the foyer of a shopping mall handing out free newspapers and speaking to passers-by as she does so. In the course of the film it gradually transpires that she might not have an official permit to stay in the country, but that she cannot return to Iran either because of the husband she has left. This complete impasse, however, does not stop her from acting. In fact, it turns out that through speaking to people in the foyer she has created a situation where a lot of these passers-by share stories of their daily chores with her. While you would assume that the precarious situation she is in would destine her to be in need of care, she reverses the situation by caring for others. Her performance continu- ously alternates between exhaustion and exuberance. In moments when she takes a cigarette break her exhaustion is highly tangi- ble, yet in moments when she is up again and talking to people, her exuberance seems uncon- ditional: she performs without any mandate and upon no request but with an unassailable legitimacy created through the fact that she cares. Like the workers in Lloyd’s Car Wash, she transforms the non-space of the foyer into a platform for her free agency. Continuing the conversation, Babak Afrassiabi drew attention to the dialectical relation between exhaustion and revolution that throughout modernity has determined the political climate in countries which experience upheavals of their social structure. While the exhaustion of the credibility of the old social order is the legitimation that revolutionaries draw from to justify the necessity of radical change, it is conversely also the regimes of the revolutionaries that plunge into crisis at the very moment their discourse exhausts itself and the promises they make begin to ring hollow. Afrassiabi argued that in post-revolu- tionary countries like Iran you could therefore analyse the development of politics over the decades following the revolution as a cycle in which the inherent promise of revolutionary rhetoric is gradually eroded through routine repetition until, at the point of its exhaustion, the discourse of the revolution is seized again by a new herald of change who promises to rejuvenate its meaning. It seems that this logic may also apply to the foundational moments in the history of modernity and contemporary The interruption of this vicious cycle would then mean to suspend it at the point of exhaustion, before it recharges itself with meaning. It is this gesture of interruption and suspense that Deimantas Narkevicius performs in his films. In Energy Lithuania (2000), for instance, he portrays the situation in the Lithuanian city of Elektrénai, a city that was built in 1962 around a major electric power station. When Lithuania regained its indepen- dence in the 1990s, the station more or less lost the function it fulfilled within the larger econ- omy of the Soviet Union, depriving the city of its raison d’être. As Narkevicius documents, the station and city exist in peculiar state of latency, neither fully operative nor entirely shut down. Two central sequences in the film capture the latencies inherent in this moment of temporary exhaustion concisely and provocatively. In one shot the camera follows a worker who, as he walks past enormous machinery in the power station, produces a discourse on the history of the station and the heroic events through which it came into being. His speech is passionate, yet the effortlessness of its delivery also betrays the routine way in which it must have been presented many times. Surprisingly, however, the irony implied by the fact that the subject of the heroic discourse of labour has more or less ceased to exist and that the speech is recited over the backdrop of shut-down machinery, does not fully invali- date it. On the contrary, the words continue to resonate with the memory of the promise of a better future as well as with the memory of the work of the people who tried to realise it. These memories cling to the words like a shadow that gives them depth despite their emptiness. These echoes are further amplified in the following sequence in which Narkevicius films a colourful modernist mural that portrays the heroic deeds of the workers in the manner of a biblical struggle. The camera travels across the image with a very slow, careful panning shot, while a Mozart piano concert plays on the soundtrack. In itself, the image looks as exhausted as the words sounded before, yet the combination of the patient gaze of the camera and flow of the music again produce echoes of the experience of those who may have invested belief in the promise of this image as they built the city. As the film simultaneously reveals both the exhaustion of the words and icons of socialism, and their residual promise, it effec- tively redeems their memory. Yet by decidedly refraining from rejuvenating their meaning, it does so without restoring their founding ideology. They are exposed in their exhaustion, yet in this state their hollow forms begin to reverberate with the memories of lived experi- ence. Consequently, the economy of the cyclical re-interpretation of revolutionary rhetoric is interrupted by an empty moment of full awareness. It is maybe in precisely such empty moments of full awarenes that the potential of a state beyond exhaustion manifests itself. In the discourse of modernism this heightened state of awareness in a moment beyond exhaustion has a name. Edgar Allen Poe described it as the state of convalescence: Not long ago, about the closing in of an evening in autumn, I sat at the large bow window of the D–––– Coffee House in London. For some months I had been ill in health, but was now convalescent, and, with returning strength, found myself in one of those happy moods which are so precisely the converse of ennui—moods of the keenest appetency, when the film from the mental vision departs, and the intellect, electrified, surpasses as greatly its everyday condition, as does the vivid yet candid reason of Leibnitz, the mad and flimsy rhetoric of Gorgias. Merely to breathe was enjoyment; and I derived positive pleasure even from many of the legitimate sources of pain. I felt a calm but inquisitive interest in every thing. With a cigar in my mouth and a newspaper in my lap, I had been amusing myself for the greater part of the afternoon, now in poring over advertisements, now in observing the promiscuous company in the room, and now in peering through the smoky panes into the street.13 As as state of suspension between exhaustion and activity, between the I Can’t and the I Can, the state of convalescence is the epitome of an empty moment of full awareness. In this moment the illusion of potency, interrupted through illness, is not yet restored (there is no way that you can go back to work in this state) but still the sense of appreciation is redeemed as the I Care returns in its full potential: You begin to care about life again, more than ever. Could we imagine this state of convales- cence as a shared condition of experience, or rather a condition shared through art and thinking? If, living under the pressure to perform, we begin to see that a state of exhaus- tion is a horizon of collective experience, could we then understand this experience as the point of departure for the formation of a particular form of solidarity? A solidarity that would not lay the foundations for the assertion of a potent operative community, but which would, on the contrary, lead us to acknowledge that the one thing we share— exhaustion—makes us an inoperative commu- nity, an exhausted community, or a community of the exhausted. A community, however, that can still act, not because it is entitled to do so by the institutions of power, but by virtue of an unconditional, exuberant politics of dedication. In short, because, as a community of convalescents, we realise in an empty moment of full awareness, that we care. Title lettering on p. 89 by Will Holder. 110 111 NOTES 1. I wish to thank the community of people who assembled during the production of the issue of Dot Dot Dot 15 at the Centre d’Art Contemporain Genève: Stuart Bailey, Will Holder, David Reinfurt, Anthony Huberman, Walead Beshty, Polona Kuzman, Joyce Guley and Jan Dirk de Wilde, all of whose criticism has been invaluable for writing and revising this essay. 2. On the Deutsche Bank webpage, the company’s mission statement reads: “We are a European powerhouse dedicated to excellence, constantly challenging the status quo to deliver superior solutions to our demanding clients. That’s why to us A Passion to Perform is far more than just a claim—it is the way we do business.” 3. From: Joanne Reid and Victoria Hubbell, “Creating a Performance Culture” in Ivey Business Journal Online (London, Ontario: The University of Western Ontario, March /April 2005) http://www. iveybusinessjournal.com 4. This line, which is also the title of the exhibition Sheffield 08, was suggested by Tim Etchells. 5. Even Kirkegaard himself cannot be trusted on this point. In his boundless irony he voiced this view (that only the rigorous choice between either/or qualified as a true choice) solely through fictional persona he invented in his writing, none of whom can be unambiguously identified as expressing his own convictions. 6. Quoted in: Georg Schöllhammer, “Engagement instead of Arrangement” in Július Koller, Univerzálne Futurologické Operácie, Cologne Kunstverein exhibition catalogue (Cologne: tranzit Verlag der Buchhandlung Walter König, 2003) p. 126. 7. I am indebted here to Robert Linsley for having hosted a residency in Toronto earlier this year, which afforded me time to think about the politics of abstraction and immanent agency of painting. 8. Giorgio Agamben: “On Potentiality” in Giorgio Agamben, Potentialities, (Stanford, CA: Stanford University Press 1999) pp.177–184 9. Irit Rogoff, “Academy as Potentiality”, in A.C.A.D.E.M.Y. (Frankfurt: Revolver, 2006) pp. 13–20. 10. Agamben, op. cit., p.177. 11. From a talk held on 14 September 2006 in a symposium organised by Irit Rogoff for the exhibition A.C.A.D.E.M.Y. at the Museum van Hedendaagse Kunst in Antwerp. 12. In writing this section I have drawn heavily on inspiring studio conversations with Ruth Legg, Eveline van den Berg and Ruth Buchanan. 13. From: Edgar Allan Poe, “The Man of The Crowd”, first published in 1840 in Burton’s Gentleman’s Magazine and simultaneously in The Casket, then variously republished in slightly revised form, in numerous subsequent Poe collections. The passage cited is taken from the second paragraph of the story. I am hugely indebted to Robert Linsley for quoting this passage to me. 112 Reflection for Readying Vinyl paint, collage on panel, 91.4 � 157.5 cm (Frances Stark, 2005)
waiting for the bus, waiting for my burrito, waiting for a phone call, waiting for an answer, waiting for the bathroom, waiting to talk, waiting for the computer to start up, waiting for the rice to finish cooking, waiting in line, waiting for paint to dry, waiting for the show to start, waiting for the circus to end, waiting for the bus to arrive, waiting for my burrito to cool down, waiting for the phone call to end, waiting for a question, waiting for my bowels to move, waiting to listen, waiting for the program to start, waiting for the rice to cool down, waiting at the checkout counter, waiting for the paint to dry, waiting for the opening remarks to end, waiting for people to file out of the tent, waiting for the bus to reach my stop, waiting for my body to digest the burrito, waiting for the phone to ring, waiting for an answer, waiting to feel hungry, waiting to understand, waiting for the program to end
waiting for the bus, waiting for my burrito, waiting for a phone call, waiting for an answer, waiting for the bathroom, waiting to talk, waiting for the computer to start up, waiting for the rice to finish cooking, waiting in line, waiting for paint to dry, waiting for the show to start, waiting for the circus to end, waiting for the bus to arrive, waiting for my burrito to cool down, waiting for the phone call to end, waiting for a question, waiting for my bowels to move, waiting to listen, waiting for the program to start, waiting for the rice to cool down, waiting at the checkout counter, waiting for the paint to dry, waiting for the opening remarks to end, waiting for people to file out of the tent, waiting for the bus to reach my stop, waiting for my body to digest the burrito, waiting for the phone to ring, waiting for an answer, waiting to feel hungry, waiting to understand, waiting for the program to end
I want to make it weird. I want to make something that makes me stop and look twice, something that makes me laugh. That makes you laugh. Something that makes you think about the thing you had forgotten about as soon as you left the house. Or just remember that you forgot. I’m not here for the answers, I’m here for the fuck of it. What am I in pursuit of? It’s a conversation with the culture I am surrounded with. Which I consume and that consumes me. Versions of history. Thoughts about the future. Other artists’ creative output. Exchange. I feel elated.
I want to make it weird. I want to make something that makes me stop and look twice, something that makes me laugh. That makes you laugh. Something that makes you think about the thing you had forgotten about as soon as you left the house. Or just remember that you forgot. I’m not here for the answers, I’m here for the fuck of it. What am I in pursuit of? It’s a conversation with the culture I am surrounded with. Which I consume and that consumes me. Versions of history. Thoughts about the future. Other artists’ creative output. Exchange. I feel elated.
Mom's crêpes: one cup of flour, one cup of milk, one egg, and a good amount of butter. The batter should be runny enough that you can spread it thinly over the whole pan. Flip when the edges are dry and only the center is still slightly wet. It should brown slightly.
Mom's crêpes: one cup of flour, one cup of milk, one egg, and a good amount of butter. The batter should be runny enough that you can spread it thinly over the whole pan. Flip when the edges are dry and only the center is still slightly wet. It should brown slightly.
It is of utmost importance to me to cultivate my intuition in a way that resonates through my artwork and can be felt by my audience. Freedom and improvisation are key elements that support my practice of intuitive artistic engagement. I consider myself a painter in the expanded field and the incorporation of sculpture, installation, sound, and dance is a vital and generative part of my practice both in the creation of work and in its conceptualization. I am interested in the way ideas are built and attached to formal arrangements; and the relationships that emerge within variations of characteristic forms and qualities. Exploring composition across different disciplines is generative for me because translation from one medium to another is always imperfect. The space in-between translation is open and allows me room to consider the resonance of different gestures; how structure is created in sound and movement and their relationship to duration invites me to think about proximity within an installation in physical space or an image within a picture plane, to modulate time spent with a form, mark, or image, and how these elements have visual impact. I am striving to have clarity within these frameworks that focuses my intention, and which drives my intuitive formal explorations. What I hope emerges through my work is an internal logic which evolves from the clarity of the intuitive development of the work. I hope to create work that is clear enough in its formal idiosyncrasies that my audience can connect with it, and that the abstraction acts as an interruption the typical flow of imagery and experience that can creates new space for my audience.
It is of utmost importance to me to cultivate my intuition in a way that resonates through my artwork and can be felt by my audience. Freedom and improvisation are key elements that support my practice of intuitive artistic engagement. I consider myself a painter in the expanded field and the incorporation of sculpture, installation, sound, and dance is a vital and generative part of my practice both in the creation of work and in its conceptualization. I am interested in the way ideas are built and attached to formal arrangements; and the relationships that emerge within variations of characteristic forms and qualities. Exploring composition across different disciplines is generative for me because translation from one medium to another is always imperfect. The space in-between translation is open and allows me room to consider the resonance of different gestures; how structure is created in sound and movement and their relationship to duration invites me to think about proximity within an installation in physical space or an image within a picture plane, to modulate time spent with a form, mark, or image, and how these elements have visual impact. I am striving to have clarity within these frameworks that focuses my intention, and which drives my intuitive formal explorations. What I hope emerges through my work is an internal logic which evolves from the clarity of the intuitive development of the work. I hope to create work that is clear enough in its formal idiosyncrasies that my audience can connect with it, and that the abstraction acts as an interruption the typical flow of imagery and experience that can creates new space for my audience.